One thing I've realize from leaving alone and away from my parents for more than a year now, I could practically do anything I could think of with out the need to ask permission or with out someone forbidding me to do so. For the most part, of course it's a good thing. That's what any "growing child" had been yearning right? Independence. And I've had that ever since I signed my first ever working contract. Though I'd say, I am still just financially independent right now. Emotionally and even morally, I'm still clinging to my family and friends for support.

Sometimes, whenever I'm in my "insightful" my moods, I would joke to myself that with the way things are with my life today, I could definitely be considered as a bachelorette. Well... A bachelorette minus the bachelorette's pad. lol. But yes it's true. Maybe, if my parents had not raised me morally upright, I could have found my self partying every night or drinking till I pass out or using drugs or getting my self pregnant. haha. But I guess we just have our own way of dealing with grief or our own way of out lining our daily itineraries to keep one's self sane with-out dwelling too much with the thought that you are alone in some bigger metropolitan city. That's why, these days, whenever I'd crave for something, I don't deprive myself. And good thing that so far, I haven't craved for those things I've mentioned above.

For today, I forced my self to finish the whole Chronicles of Narnia book which I had been neglecting for weeks now. That made me skip breakfast and lunch and yes I realized that I am hungry when I was 3 pages away from the ending. The only food available with in reach is a pack of an oatmeal crackers and yes you got it right, it did not help that much. I realized the last time I had real food was 8'oclock last night when we had our Birthday bash party in the office. And then I thought of pizza and ice cream. I was craving for it but still I somehow manage to push myself back to the world of Narnia. But like what I said, I don't deprive myself my cravings these days. So I had those. Pizza and ice cream indeed.

White Chicago Pizza

I think this is the cheesiest pizza I've ever had so far. It took me quite a while to finish it. The serving is too big for my stomach's consumption I guess. I'm trying to think of the ingredients. Some ham, pineapple, White cheese and some more cheese. lol. But it sure is tasty.

Coffee Ice Cream

I was thinking of having coffee instead of Ice Cream but I passed by the Ice-Cream stall first so I considered that as a sign. Anyway, since I was thinking of coffee, why not have a coffee flavored Ice cream. And I really had what I was asking for, Real Coffee. I mean, this ice cream has some bits of real coffee grains on it. Never thought I'd actually eat a coffee grain for real. lol. Weird but it sure too is tasty.

And of course that leaves me satisfied. ^_^





Wait, this is my first ever real pic here in my blog right? haha. Well, for those who knows me since I was in school would definitely think that nothing much had changed. Well, though life is a constant change, somethings still remains right?^_^

I guess I will leave this long and winding blog with what happened in the pizza parlor that I had dined in. I was sitting across a middle-aged woman who's also eating alone like me and though I don't mean to hover, I found her enjoying her food though she's alone in a suppose to be 4-people table. In a moment, it just occurred to me that it seemed like a very good sign. It hit me that I could like be this woman. With her age, she seemed not to mind to be alone or single. But is she single? I don't know. And then a little boy approached her followed by his dad. Oh, so she's not single. She's just waiting for her husband and son. lol. My bad. See? It's not good to make up stories because most of the time, your story is wrong. But then I thought that if that's a sign, what a very good sign it is.^_^

I'm positively one of those who had been greatly anticipating the sequel of the movie adaptation of Transformers. I've been one of those people who after watching the first Transformers movie, had been crazily hooked up to it. Bumblebee was an instant favorite. And hearing the voice of Optimus Prime was really nostalgic. In a way, after watching the second movie, Bumblebee is still likable and Optimus Prime is still as indispensable and the best leader for any robotic raise ever made. But the answer to the question of whether the sequel is better than the first movie is not a straight yes.

Action wise, definitely, I'd go for part 2. I love the fight scenes. It's really nice to watch some bloodless violence.lol. Well, obviously because it's the robots who are fighting so no blood included. If we'd talk about fight scenes and visual effects, definitely it's a hats off for this movie. It lived up to any movie-goers expectations if we'd talk about those two.

But for the story-line itself, I think that's where I am not that impress with. Although you could get the general story that Megatron came to life and of course seeks revenge and that an Ancestral Decepticon had a plot of getting the energy from the Earth-sun and the Autobots of course worked hand in hand with the human race to stop that or in short, Transformers 2 is using the all-time tested movie formula "the battle to save the earth"-formula. Possibly, the thing that did not work for this movie is the added number of new autobots and decepticons. Although if you had been watching the old cartoons, it's true that there's a lot of transformers but somehow I wish there was a far better way of distinguishing them like the way it goes in part 1. There were instances that you'd find it confusing which of those robots is a Decepticon or an Autobot. Or I could possibly also complain about the too much slow motion (especially if Megan is running) or I could also complain about the letting Megatron live and leave at the end of the movie which would obviously make it easier for the 3rd installment of the movie which I think is 100% possible.

Hmmm...Most likely, the critical side of me will take note of all those things. That this second film featured more characters and a longer movie running time and you'd actually think that sometimes more is not good enough. But then again, the first thing that I have to keep in mind is I am a movie-goer. And I watch a movie to be entertained. So was I entertained? Yes I was. I'd still say the movie is worth watching. I still love Bumblebee and I actually felt sad when something happened to Optimus Prime. (Hope I'm not giving out some spoilers.) Although the negative sides of the movie which I've mentioned above are the reasons why I cannot give this movie a perfect score, the robots and Shia's acting are enough to keep me entertained.

My verdict?

Rating: ★★★☆☆

Just extending my greetings to Kris Allen! Happy Happy Birthday to you! I wish you'd be more successful and be more blessed in your career. I hope to see you in Grammys! ^_^ And yes, may your marriage truly be blessed too.^_^

Happy Birthday to you! and I wish that I am in this video.=)



I guess it's high time for me to paint my right thumb black.XD

People born in June and under the sign of the Gemini are really talented. lol.

Happy Birthday Kris Allen! ♥♥♥

Thank God it's Friday! Probably, that's one of the most used expressions any worker/laborer had said. There's only one reason for that: it's the last day of the working days. At least that would be for "normal" working people. For special cases like mine, a Friday could be the start of a work-week or it could be a rest day. Good thing for today, my case fell on the latter part. I had a day off. And there were 4 things that had at least entertained me for the day: motorbikes, a movie, a book and a tall-sized coffee. I know that the last 3 are so the typical me but what's with the motorcycle?

Although I'm not a motorcycle enthusiast, I can't help but admire those flashy Harley Davidson motorcycles. I never thought I'd ever get to see a number of those luxurious bikes up close and personal. They're actually the type that once you had purchased one of those, you'd have it tied up in your garage for fear that someone might steal it while you'd park it somewhere or because the city's road is rough enough for its wheels. They are literary flashy, shiny, and reminded me of those motorbikes used by Mask-Rider Black and Shaider. Very Cool!

slide show of some Harley Davidson Motorcycles

AS for the movie-part, I watched the Night at the Museum. On my way out of the theater, I overheard a guy saying: "That's the most dumbest F**king movie I've ever seen!". If given a chance to reply, I could have said: Watch your language, most especially your grammar. LOL. But for the most part I have to agree with him. The movie is not good.

Anyway, since today is payday Friday for me, I decided to buy a book then planned to read it in a coffee-shop. It's been a while since the last time I had that so I went to one of the coffee-shops I usually go. Too bad, it's currently close for renovation. Too bad I can't see the barista-guy I had a crush on. LOL. So I went to another branch and lo and behold! You got it right! My likey-liked barista was there. You think that's Fate? LOL.

It's not likely that he remembered me. I mean, if he did, he did not gave any clue that he did. LOL. Of course I don't go there everyday or every week so I can't be considered as a regular customer. But I'd like to think that I'm not that easy to be forgotten. XD hahaha. Alright. Of course the usual thing happened. He asked for my name and he uttered my name thrice. First was when he asked what kind of coffee would I want. Second time was when he asked me which would I prefer, a regular or a non-fat milk. And the third time was when he served my coffee. And then he gave me his name: Leon. XD. LOL. OK, I made a quick glance on his name plate. It was shorter than I thought. Reminded me of my favorite Resident Evil character (Leon) and one of my favorite bands (Kings of Leon). I might add him on my list: my favorite barista. LOL. But it's only the say-my-name-part that was ok. When I had my coffee, I was disappointed. He misspelled my name.-_-




The coffee shop had a number of people more than I expected it to have. The place was probably 75% full. I decided to seat on one of those round-coffee tables, a bit near to the counter where Leon was in =p but the location was bad enough to be in front of a young couple. Bad enough in a sense that I found them distracting. Hugging is one thing. Snuggling is another thing. And smooching is definitely a totally different thing! I made a mental note to self that if I'd have a boyfriend, I'll be considerate to others. So, it ended me reading just the prologue of the book and the for here coffee turned to a to go. I simply went out and looked at the motorcycles again.

Crazy Friday indeed.

In no particular order, here's the top 15 movies I'm very much looking forward to watch before the year ends. Hopefully, I'd get to watch all of these in the theater.^_^

note: click on the pictures for bigger movie posters.

1. Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

Showing on: 15 July 2009

I'm very much looking forward for Dumbledore's death. I mean, I'm wondering if the movie will move me the way the book did when I read about Albus Dumbledore's death. T_T And of course I miss Daniel Radcliffe as well. I want to cast some spell and see flying broomsticks and yes, Quidditch!

Expeliarmus! ^_^



2. The Twilight Saga: New Moon

Showing on: 20 November 2009

I'm now actually starting to like the cast of the Twilight Saga movies. Yep, that would include Robert Pattinson (although I only like him because he is Edward Cullen). I love the whole collection of the series but most especially this book because this is a book about heart-aches. haha. Most of my favorite lines are from this sequel. And Taylor who's playing Jacob is looking really hot! lol. And not to mention that Dakota Fanning is included in the cast as well. Cool!




3. The Proposal


Showing on: 19 June 2009

This will be the reason why I will even want to be a June bride. lol. The first time I've seen the trailer, I fell in love with the movie right away. For sure there will be a lot of ROFLOF but at the same time, romantic scenes. Maybe I could get some tips from this movie. I mean, I'd take the cue from Sandra Bullock that when all else fail, a marriage proposal to a man will definitely make all the pieces back together. XD




4. Paper Heart

Showing on: 14 August 2009

"Your love glass is half-full".

I am so totally very much looking for this movie. The title was the one that caught my attention. And when I watched the trailer I fell in love with the movie right away. ^_^ This is a part documentary, part-scripted movie about a girl who does not believe in love. She made interviews across America and she even interviewed Jack Black. lol. This is a story of Charlyne Yi and her real life boyfriend Michael Sera, I was really surprised when I read that. I like Charlyne's facial expressions. haha. Can't wait to see this.^_^


5. G.I. Joe: The Rise of Cobra


Showing on: 7 August 2009

I remember back then my older brothers are always playing with their G. I. Joe toys. And back then I'd usually fight with them cause I want to play it too. lol. And right now, who would have taught that it'll be my Channing Tatum who will play the part of Duke? ♥♥♥






6. The Ugly Truth


Showing on: 24 July 2009

Gerald Butler. Who will not swoon over this man? From 300 to P.S. I love you, who would have taught that he was from the law firm before he started acting?♥







7. Echelon Conspiracy



Showing on: 12 March 2009

Alright, I know we are already in the month of June and why am I still looking forward for this movie? It is still set to be released in the country for the next month I guess. And the sole reason why I want to watch this movie is because Shane West is on it. I miss him in the big screen already. He's my original hubby. ^_^ ♥♥♥





8. The Time Traveler's Wife


Showing on: 14 August 2009

I think this movie is already long over-due but I am still waiting for it. I love the book and I'm also wondering if Eric Bana will bare it all. XD








9. Public Enemies


Showing on: 1 July 2009

Another role-playing for Mr. Johnny Depp. And this time, he'd more or less the antagonist. From being a pirate to a barber murderer, he is now the coolest American Gangster.







10. Where the Wild Things Are.



Showing on: 16 October 2009

I haven't read the book yet but the last time I saw the trailer, I just love the kid in the movie. And somehow, it reminded me of my childhood days.^_^







11. Astro Boy



Showing on: 23 October 2009

The first ever anime that was created! Definitely, Astro Boy is timeless. And it reminds me of someone too. That alone would spark my interest to this movie. And I love Freddie Highmore!^_^








12. Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen


Showing on: 24 June 2009

Decepticons and Autobots. The first Transformer movie is so cool! Especially the effects! And I'm pretty sure this second installment is even better. I heard their budget is twice than what they have before. Can't wait to see Bumblebee again.^_^








13. The Princess and the Frog


Showing on: 11 December 2009

Who doesn't know this timeless love story? But I definitely want to watch it again. Maybe, get some tips on how to look for the right kind of frog.XD









14. Sherlock Holmes


Showing on: 25 December 2009

I was actually a bit sceptical when I learned that it'll be Robert Downey who will portray Sherlock. But after I watched the trailer, I was so impressed! He's a very funny guy as well. And not to mention, Jude Law is also in this movie.^_^







15. Lovely Bones


Showing on: 11 December 2009

Not really sure if that's the real poster of the movie. Ryan Gosling on that pic reminded me of the Notebook. lol. But I like this book. And I also like Saoirse Ronan. She's young but she's really a good actress. But wait, isn't it that the one who'd be playing Jack Salmon is Mark Wahlberg? I'm confuse. Well, better wait for the movie then.^_^




I sure hope I'd get to watch them all!^_^

Oh don't worry, I'll spare you from my downers these days. ^_^ I will not talk about a slice of my life but about the slice of something that keeps me alive: Food. And of course if we'd talk about food that could be sliced, the first 2 things that comes to mind would be cake and pizza. And tonight, I had pizza.^_^

It was just an instant decision actually that me and the others had made. Someone just muttered "I want to eat pizza" and everyone agreed right away. lol.

Since I've been pretty much advertising Cebu City in my previous entries like bookshops, coffee-shops, and guitars, let me add pizza parlors on the list and tonight I'll give Da Vinci's Pizza a free advertisement. =D




I recommend Chicken Garlic Supreme and Hawaiian Delight. Yummy and Affordable. haha.^_^

Dear John,

Somehow I found myself thinking of you tonight. It feels as if it's only yesterday that we first met each other (or more likely the first time I saw you) when in fact more than 5 years had already passed. As I come to think about it, I did not like you the first time I saw you. You were just some guy desperately trying to be funny teaching us absurd dance steps. Or so I thought. But then things are always bound to change right?=) I remember back then, I'm not the only girl who had seemed to like you. Everybody was fond of you. You were like the stage-actor and we were the audience. We were trance by your wit, leadership, humor and good looks. But after your show, everybody seemed to get back to their senses and cleared out while I was left alone still looking at you.

That's a cheesy comparison don't you think? Like you are some actor and I am one of your fans. haha. Can I think of something better than that? Well I guess you won't expect me to say that you were like my own personal brand of heroin. lol. But yes my very first addiction was named after you. And I stared. Related every love song to you. Nothing felt amiss whenever I'd get to see you. Then I started writing to comfort me while I wait. But like some things, you never came.

Love dazzles. Often it blinds. I knew from the start that people like you are not meant for people like me. After all, before our path crossed, you already have someone in your life. And it will remain that way like it was before. Like the way it's going to be. And just like what you said, you never expected you’ll hit it big time the first time, but you're one of those lucky bunch… a first and yes, the last… But can you forgive my selfishness when often times I'd hope that you'd find your self free to love again?

But yes I thank you actually. You helped me define love. I grew up defining love with you in the background. Somehow if I'd think about it, possibly, other people will think that what I felt for you was nothing more than an obsession or something brought about by my young heart. Yes I always have the youth-excuse.^_^ But something that they'd never understand, not even my friends, would be me choosing you of all people. I'm also wondering if you are not the way you are would I still feel the same way? I've met a couple of guys like you but nothing feels right with them. I mean, just in case I'm inclined to the likes of you. lol. But so far, you're the exemption.

I never felt the in dire need to give a detailed explanation just to reason out that what I felt for you was real. It's simply because I know in my heart how real it was.

I loved you. And though through time, grief and love lessens, I know that in my life time you will never be just a face in the crowd. And you know what? In all of my life's struggles, about my career, about life in its entirety, I know I will travel the same road if ever I'd be given a chance to relive life. Because I know I'd still find my self sitting beside you in one of those morning of January 2004. Because from then on I knew to my self that I had loved and I was beside a boy I know I will never forget.

Reuc

If you are a guitar enthusiast you'd possibly be familiar with the old guitar debate: Which is better, Gibson or Fender? Personally, I don't really care which of the two I'd have as long as I could acquire one. Having a personal Gibson or Fender guitar will be more of a luxury for me more than a necessity. First thing, I'm not a professional musician and second thing, my monthly pay-check won't allow me to.

I'm currently working in Cebu which I guess is the guitar capital of the Philippines. This place will give any guitar player sufficient number of guitars to choose from. Last time there was a guitar fair and I've seen first hand how locals make hand-crafted guitars. It's really amazing. Well, if Gibson is known world wide for its acoustic guitar, I'm pretty sure a local brand here in Cebu is at par to its quality. Yep, patronize our very own. ^_^

since 1910 Ferangeli Guitars

unfinished guitar

Acoustic Guitars

personal favorite.

A local group also performed during the fair. They are called Kwerdas. Kwerdas is a local term for "strings" and obviously, the group is playing stringed instruments only like an acoustic guitar, bass, viola and a banduria. I like their medley of Ryan Cayabyab's compositions. But the crowd enjoyed their novelty performances a lot. If you're a Filipino, you'd definitely know the king of novelty here, Yoyoy Villame. He was "reincarnated" during the show. Check video below. Wait till you here the first note. ^_^

I have a confession to make. When I was still young, young as in 5 till 10 years old, I was never a fan of princesses and princes tales. Most likely because I grew up with my 2 older brothers so most often you'd find me watching Voltes-V, Mask-Rider Black, Shaider and Voltron instead of watching those tales about and they live happily ever after. I remembered the first I watched Beauty and the Beast, there was this scene when Chip (the teacup) was like bothering his mother Mrs. Potts who was singing "There may be something there that wasn't there before...Perhaps there's something there that wasn't there before..." And then Chip was like jumping and bugging his mom and asking "what's there?" and Mrs. Potts replied "I'll tell you when you're older." I was like huh!? I find my self asking my cousin who's 10 years older than me asking the same question Chip had. And of course my cousin gave me the same answer Mrs. Potts had. What a bummer.

As I come to think about it now that I am in the right age to know that of course it was Love they are referring to, why was there a need to hide it from us that they are referring to love about that "there is something that was never there before?" Is it because love is too big as a concept for a little girl like me?

Just a thought after pass midnight. Actually I'm working tonight but since finally, I've made all my outbound calls and the incoming calls had finally subside, I went to the pantry to grab a quick snack. The TV is showing some music video from Taylor Swift and I got my self transfix for a while. To be honest, I'm not a fan of Taylor. I sometimes think her music is a little to "teeny" for me. And since I am already 22, I'd like to think that I am way over those teenage-related music/movies. But there are three things that captured my attention: The melodramatic music video, the lyrics and I find the guy in the music video cute.^_^ Alright. I think I'm not yet totally over with teenage-stuffs.XD

So what's the relation of that video to princesses and princes? Plain and simple, the title is White Horse. And that actually made me realize that usually, prince charming rides a white horse. I wonder why.

That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around...


Those are my favorite lines. The song is actually about a guy who breaks a girl's heart and then tries to win her back. So I can't relate to the song. haha. But I like the metaphor. Any girl would definitely like this song. Just like me.

Oh just forget the teeny part.^_^

This part of my life, this part right here? This part is called "growing up."

There seems to be a negative connotation if I'd actually say I am getting old. Although I am technically a year older 2 days ago, there's no point in dwelling with that kind of thinking. I think 22 is a good age. It's not too young and not too old either. Let's just say that at this age I've acquired enough experience to help me get through life for maybe another 22 years and beyond. I've been independent from my parents for over a year now and I had my share of good and bad times. And although I know there's still a lot of things that I still have to learn, in a way, I had already gained enough experience that any 22-year old guy or girl is ought to have. I've finished school. Passed and failed some after-school-real life examinations. Got wasted from too much drinking. Earned a living. If there's something I'm probably wasn't lucky to experience (yet) that would be having a boy-friend. Although that inexperience doesn't mean that I've never been in love. I had my share of a broken-heart too.

I've recently watched the movie 17 Again. There's this "spirit-guide" who thinks that there are people who seem to like living in the past. Those who are always thinking of the "what might have been". I'm actually one of those people. There are things I've regretted to do, decisions I hope I did not make, results I've been totally remorseful of. Maybe if that "spirit-guide" is true, I would probably volunteer myself to be 17 again. 17 was the age I had to chosen the course I have to enter. It's also the start of my first love, founding of a great friendship, forced maturity. I do want to relive those days again.

But then maybe the spirit-guide won't let me go back. After all, unlike the protagonist, I'm not blaming anyone for all the failures I had had. And that if I am just simply to relive those days, then what's the point of sending me back through time if I am not going to alter anything? The spirit-guide would most likely won't waste his power on me.

I remembered that book The Little Prince when the narrator was ranting about grown-ups. That we grown-ups never understand anything by ourselves, and it is tiresome for children to have to explain things to us always and forever. lol. That's so true. We grown-ups tend to really complicate things. Like we want to do and not to do something at the same time. Like we want to hold on and let go at the same time. Or like how we want to grow up but stay young at the same time. Now how is that possible? It's really crazy.

Well, as for me, I guess I'd better stick around with 22 for another year. And maybe, I'd get it from the children, just keep things simple.

Rating: ★★★☆☆

It's my birthday today. Yes I know I really don't have to reiterate that fact but that reminder is mainly for myself. It's my 22nd birthday. It still seems surreal for me. I'm getting old.

Anyway, I haven't thought of the things I'm suppose to do today except work of course. I really haven't thought of what to wish today as well. Good thing, Pards came to the rescue and wished for me things I ought to wish for my self as well.

01 good health

So far I've been blessed with good health and so I'm just asking God for continued blessing.

02 great body

Hahaha. This is tricky. But anyway I think my size today is just a-ok. No more details.

03 smashing stats in work

Hmmmm...Don't want to sound smug but I think I'm consistently good in my work stats. In fact I had the highest rating last week. lol. Well, I do hope I won't make a boo-boo. Still have a lot of things to learn in this job that I have especially now that I am more or less having more responsibilities at work. But a smashing stats really sounds nice!^_^

04 good sleep

I'm wishing this every day.^_^

05 great books

Yes...Got a long list already.

06 the time in the world

This is hard to have these days so I'm wishing it too.

07 your space under the sun

Been wishing this ever since I've felt mature enough.

08 a vacation

I miss my family. I want to be with my younger siblings. Talk with bro. Bond with mom over Koreanovelas. I do wish I could have this wish come true sooner. And Of course I want to spend time with my friends too. I miss my gang. I miss home. T_T

09 a good cup of coffee

Hmmmm...Come to think of it, lately I haven't had a good cup of coffee. Will keep this in mind.

10 and of course, *tantanan!* a love life

Keeping my fingers cross for that.^_^

Alright. Now that it's all said and done (I mean, all had been said but not yet done) I think it's high time to make one of those wishes come true. How about let's start from the last, number 10? Well I hope I could start from that. lol. For now let's start from something pretty much attainable. Number 04: Good Sleep. Alrighty then. Time to go home and grab those pillows. I know it's already morning but sleep well everyone.

ciao for now.

It's my birthday. And it's a working day birthday. The second time I let the clock strike midnight for June 3 here in our office. And yes I have to get back to work now. And yes again, I am finally 22 years old.
Er --- is this the "I'm not a girl not yet a woman"-period? ^_^

Wish me luck. I sure hope I'd have a Happy Birthday.^_^

I woke up with a headache. It's as if I had drunk a whole case of beer last night and I'm having a hang-over. Then what do you call that moment when you hate yourself for that self-inflicted pain? Is that self-abhorrence? Forget about that then. I was not that close to feeling that anyway. It's more of disorientation. And next thing was the realization that it's not hang-over. It was just another case of lack of sleep.

Somehow I pulled myself out of bed and went to work an hour after. Possibly, I'm simply having what other people would refer to as Monday Blues except that today is Tuesday and my Monday morning is a Tuesday late-afternoon. But then of course the headache was with-out purpose. It was there to remind me that I needed to shower, needed to have that slow walk to work and I badly needed to grab my first meal for the day. There seemed to be no point actually of going through all those things, no reason at all beyond the slavery of habit. But I was doing it anyway and still be doing it. Yes, habit pushes me all the way into the chair of my cube where I will sit for my whole shift, in front of my computer letting the night drag me off into gray drudgery.

And having my last day as a 21-years-old did not change anything. And after five hours, it'll still be the same.