Finally!

I'm transferring (I don't know yet if this is for good) to a new site. I can't access blogger in the office since it's blocked and since 70% of the time I am in the office, it will be hard not to get in touch with my cyber-world so off with a different URL it is. Anway, I imported all of my blogs in my new site, so it's actually more or less the same with this blogger site of mine just with a better background and lay-out though^_^

Update:


February 09, 2011

My .tk account went down. It's a problem with the dot.tk site. I think since that .tk site of mine gained popularity they had it as a non-free domain instead. Such a scam. Anyway, I'm working on a new domain. This time, it's a non-free domain site so I'm pretty sure it's not a hoax.


Wait up for kristinecuer.com

ETA: 24-48 hours from now.

Follow me there again.^^


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I'm not much of a political blogger nor do I have any interest on politics. Although yeah, once in a while I do give my own views and opinions over stuff like this. I don't want to be dub as someone who is apathetic, nor someone who simply rants over her government bulls just because the majority does the same thing. As much as possible, we have to weight things up before taking a side.

My country just heard the first ever State of the Nation Address from the President of our new government. I like the fact that President Aquino delivered his speech mostly in our own language for the majority to understand. He mostly talked about the horrors and debts left by the previous administration and promised a clean government under his term, and that we Filipinos can finally dream again. Well, if there's something "negative" I can comment from the President's speech, is there's not much concrete plans yet. All still seems too vague to be accomplished in a 6 year-run, but then maybe, just maybe, since as what he had mentioned, his government is learning from the mistakes of the previous administration, it's still too soon to come up with a plan on how to resolve those problems one by one.

Maybe if there's something I would like to tell President Noy directly, I'd probably say:

I did not vote for you last May 2010 election. During the campaign period I did not find you competent enough to lead a nation who seems to be broken beyond repair. I thought of you as someone who has nothing else aside from a popular mom and a heroic dad. But then you won and I was left with no other choice but to accept what the majority had decided. After-all that's what democracy is all about: we have to go with the majority.

But I hope you will prove me wrong for not choosing you last May election. Yes you are right when you said that last May 10 is a testament to the fact that the Filipino continues to hope for true change. Nobody wants to be drowned in apathy. And I genuinely wish I am wrong with being prejudice over you.

May you indeed lead this country to a better future. May you make those dreams realities. May you indeed start the change this country needs.

And 0h yes, please do lead the way.

There's probably nothing much I can say/write that you probably haven't read/heard about this movie. After all, a movie this rare is hard to miss. Proof of that, Inception is still an on going trending topic in twitter ever since it's first showing. People around the globe just can't help but join the bandwagon of giving their praise about the movie (though there are of course those who are not that as impress) but the majority is saying the same thing (including me) --- Inception is a great film.

Well personally, casting Joseph Gordon Levitt in the film is more than enough reason for me to watch. LOL. But I guess what works for this movie is the combination of it's stunning visual effects, comprehensive story-line and amazing cast ensemble. See, I am oozing with adjectives. haha. But again, as a movie-goer, it gets to challenge you to think, to try to understand the complexity of its plot, to comprehend its depth. It's nice to get away from the usual chick-flick/rom-com-kind of movies sometimes.

Psychology 101: Lucid Dreams, dreaming with-in-a-dream. I remember this as one of our topics back in college in our Psyche class about you waking up only to find out that you are still dreaming. Remembered a line from the movie: "Dreams feel real while we're in them. It's only when we wake up that we realize something was actually strange." I guess it's even stranger if you'd find your self in such state. That you keep on dreaming and waking up inside a dream. Pretty scary in a way. Like some unending process, until you come to a certain point of you not knowing what's real and what's not.

Inception though is more than dreaming. The thought of planting an idea to somebody---to make him believe that this is the exact truth is somehow synonymous to brain washing. In inception though, hypnotism is not the key. Plain and simple, you enter that person's mind while he/she is sleeping then rearrange everything from there. True, an idea indeed can transform the world and rewrite all the rules --- you can even bend the rules of physics!

Well, this is not like the first time a movie tried to mess with our mind. Or a movie tried to make us believe that our mind is definitely a powerful thing. But Christopher Nolan gives us another taste on our movie-platter. At least, we get to do away with the usual book-turned/comics-turned-in to movies. A big risk that definitely paid off.

So Dream big. cause if you don't dream big then what's the use of dreaming?

haha. --- So yeah, just go ahead, watch it. It'll be another movie experience.

Rating: ★★★★★

If we were starring in a romantic movie, I would have chosen Southern Son's You were there as our OST --- old school yes --- but somehow I can't find a better song than that. Cause though I know that this is a romantic acoustic song --- I still couldn't make it if the guy and the girl ended together basing on the lyrics.

If we were starring in a romantic movie, this is how it could have worked: We come in to each other's lives like serendipity --- some fortunate accident, we were both claiming we are not ready for love yet --- or make that falling in Love is not first in our priority list. For me, it was mainly because my first love did not went well enough-- I was heartbroken, while for you, it was mainly because career was and always first in your list --- no time to squeeze love in your tight and busy schedule. This first commonality first attracted me to you. My friends somehow knew that finally I have set my eyes into someone new and they found a way to introduce me to you. After some non-ceremonial introductions, we still manage to regard these things as ordinary -- we went back to focusing our attention to our daily routine--to our work.

Then one day you snap out of it. You've had enough time of being alone --- and you're finally ready to take a new chapter of your life with someone else. And then you realized through a series of flashbacks of the times that fate somehow shoved us together --- how happy and relax we seem to be in each other's company --- and how the timing seemed too perfect for the two of us. You realize that you too like me as much as I like you. Meanwhile, I lost hope that you will feel the same way, and afraid of another broken-heart, I decided to escape and planned to go back home for good.

You drove to the airport to stop me. You ran through traffic. You evaded the security personnel. And just when I'm about to board my flight, you called my name and you told me things I've been waiting and wanting to hear. We hugged --- yeah, even kissed and it felt as if we were the only people in the world.

Unfortunately that's not how it worked for us. I had always been smitten with you even before the serendipitous introductions. Even before I admitted to myself that I am finally over my first love. But you didn't snap out of it. You didn't realize that we belong together. You didn't feel the same way.

But I don't know. You always somehow manages to get my hopes high, or maybe it's just me who is reading the signs in a wrong way. But you said goodbye before we even had a chance to have a casual conversation.

Goodbye is such a strange idea isn't it?--- What if the person being left behind refuses to accept it or resents being waved goodbye? Is it still a goodbye for good or simply something like let's-just-call-it-a-day-concept?

I don't know why you left. But of course it wasn't because of anything I said or did, or anything I didn't say or didn't do. That would be so assuming of me. Maybe it wasn't even yours, either. You have to leave and the reason doesn't matter since it will not make much of a difference because I wasn't part of your past or your future anyway--- I was only a part of your present --- and that wasn't enough for you to stay. You never saw me as anything else or anything more. You left because you could and you are leaving because you can.

This has really been a long entry I know. Somehow I was thinking that I can't be like this all the time. That when somebody I like did not take a double look over me --- I'd feel rejected / unwanted / forlorn. It makes no sense that I'm always the one picking up the pieces in slow motion.

As usual, it's so tempting for me to look into the mirror and to see there's nothing more than a girl who can't get the boy she wants. When I try to evaluate my life, it's hard not to focus on the fact that I'm perpetually a single person for two decades now. It's tempting, it's hard, stupid in a way when I know there's a lot of other people who have worse case than I have and when I know that I am much more than those things.

For now, there's nothing for me to think further. I already did what I should have done long before you had said goodbye. Like what my friend said, not everyone can do that. It did not paid off but it was worth a try. Yeah, It was worth it in the end.

1. I'm suppose to be enjoying my rest day. Maybe watch a movie or go shopping not writing this note for you.

2. But I had been on haywire since yesterday --- since I read your email --- and I just need a channel to vent out --- then why not write a blog?

3. After all, I've always thought that blogging is something that we both share --- or make that we both like. Makes me wonder have you ever read any of my blog?

4. Speaking of that email, imagine my surprise when I first read the sender's name.

5. And imagine my reaction when I read the message of the mail. --- I had a hard time concentrating on my next 2 calls --- alright make that 3.

6. It really got me thinking why was I included in the list of people you had sent it to.

7. And especially the part where my name was last on the list.

8. I was thinking maybe you were still in doubt whether to include me or not or maybe my name is really just simply last in your address book.

9. Then I thought it doesn't really matter as long as I was included.

10. Sorry, it means something to me.

11. It means a lot that I even replied on impulse.

12. Now, I'm wondering what could have been your reaction the moment you read my reply.

13. And I'm wondering if you are going to reply to my reply.

14. My email response is suppose to be 2 paragraphs longer --- but I omitted some lines. I tried to keep it short and simple.

15. I don't want you to think that I am too affected by your decision.

16. The truth is --- I am.

17. And I mean it when I said that somehow I regret that we never really had a chance to talk --- despite the number of opportunities we/I had.

18. I hate hate hate the awkwardness that we had.

19. I've accepted a number of invites thinking you'd be there and maybe we'd end up chatting or something since we're finally outside the work premise.

20. But it always ends up with you not being there.

21. Well, I know that your priorities had always been different from the rest of us.

22. But well again, there's just this thing called "taking chances."

23. I much rather have Kris Allen, Daniel Radcliffe or Mr. Darcy. But I much rather have you.

24. So yeah I do like you --- like more than a lot actually.

25. In fact I've created 3 blogs for you (this will be the 4th) and I've mentioned you in 11 of my blogs.

26. But then there was some time that I tried to deny it and even formulated my Top 10 reasons why I don't like you.

27. I told my friend Abigail about it but she did not believe them. Worse, she simply laugh it off. So I ended up not posting it.

28. Like I don't like our one and only picture together --- I look constipated. and the fact that you had it uploaded in one of your social sites makes it worse.

29. But I like the way you smiled in that picture. Maybe I am just really a hopeless romantic that I always thought you were smiling for the camera for me.

30. Which reminds me I still have two of your smileys that you had given me from our company smile campaign. I had it posted in my wall together with my "Today's Advice" poster. I regard that as a happy thought to keep on smiling.

31. So speaking of your smile, I actually like your dimple. I will always remember that elevator incident. I never thought I could make you laugh but I think I did. Although, I really feel stupid that day.

32. So yeah, maybe I still do like you. I am your official online stalker. --- I'm not sure if this is a bad thing. But yeah, I like looking at your profile pic.

33. But going back to your mail, I actually thought that maybe that's your way of saying: "Thank you that you had taken fancy of me but it's time to wake-up, it's over --- move on."

34. But I also thought that maybe that's your way of saying that you do appreciate my attention and that you do acknowledge my existence when all the while I thought you did not.

35. Since I'll never really know your reason I'll stick with number 34.

36. Now you might be wondering why I opted for 50. No particular reason. I was suppose to make this 100 since the amount of time it takes to get over someone should be at least one third of the time you were together (or in our case, "together"), which means more or less around 10 months --- that makes it more or less 300 days.

37. But then I thought there's really nothing to get over so why will I make it 1/3? I went for 1/2 of 1/3 instead.

38. I like you-- more than a lot.

39. I think that's the 3rd time I mentioned it here. I don't know, maybe I just want to set the record straight.

40. I never wanted to use the word love over you --- that's pretty scary.

41. So maybe it's a good thing that we no longer have a chance to work again together --- cause there's a possibility that it might go beyond like.

42. That line comes to mind again: I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you. Yes there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you. --- good thing nothing is ever certain. Thank God for possibilities.

43. I don't know but yeah I will miss seeing those set of jackets.

44. I will miss your messy-obviously-I -just-woke-up-kind-of-hairstyle.

45. I will miss those times that I'd like to think that you're overstaying in the pantry cause I am there too --- eating/ pretending to read the newspaper.

46. I will miss us being teased in the office as if we're an item.

47. I will miss your stingy smile.

48. I will miss you.

49. I wish you happiness and may you finally find your place in the sun.

50. Hope you'll keep in touch. ♥

They say that the yardstick of friendship is not the amount of time you had been together nor how much time you had spent with them, it's how you had spent those days with them. That just like a tree which is not measured on how tall it could be, but instead based on how deep the roots had grown. But if you have that kind of friendship whose roots had grown deeper but had still lasted through the years --- tested through time --- what more could you ask for?

Personally, I never asked for it. Ironically, I was the type of person who had always had my guard on all the time --- Trust was a hard thing to give.

But maybe friendship is just like falling in love. You finally get to meet and get to know that particular person who caught your eyes. Sometimes you're too scared to plunge into it. But then that's why they call love as a leap of faith. Cause just like a force of nature that's unpredictable and unstoppable --- you still fall for it anyway.

Friendship too is a leap of faith. At least for me that's the case.

You can get to have a hundred of acquaintances or even a thousand of them. Totally possible. ---That's more like crushes or flings if we'd talk in the perspective of love. (Maybe that's the major difference between platonic and erotic love. You won't be charged of polygamy for having more than one friend) LOL.--- But there are only a chosen few who can gain your trust and whom you can trust in return.

Maybe in a way for single people like me, we could consider our friends as our love life --- So yeah, I fell in love with a couple of girls. =P I was, I am and will never mind falling in love with them all over again. And they are crazy enough to reciprocate it. And today we're celebrating our 7th year of friendship and love.

I may not be that lucky in terms of love but I'm blessed with a friendship some people would die for. Maybe I'm exaggerating, maybe I'm not. But if I'd be a maiden for life, (hopefully not. =P), I can still say that I have a set of friends I can grow old with.

To my JMVECK gang, I love you guys and though we're all living separate lives now, I know we'll be friends through infinity and beyond! (kung si Buzz Lightyear pa.) XD

I really miss you guys. Come and visit me here some time.^_^

Happy 7th!

♥Lots,
cue/pards/bata/tintin

noong kami ay bata pa =P

Divine Sisterhood of JMVECK

I have a question.

My pizza paused mid-air by his sudden change of expression --- he was attempting to look serious. I tried not to laugh. I shrugged it off and continued devouring the biggest slice of pizza I've ever had --- I was too hungry to care after all.

Do you like him a lot? And does this guy even have any idea how much you like him?

I almost choke --- Definitely. I never saw that coming.

But as usual I countered. Wrong question, I replied. Liked. And I don't know if he has any idea about it, I continued. As me and my friend talked about other things, the back of my mind is still wondering back to that question about you.

LikeD. I corrected him right away. Trying to force the issue that the real problem is the lack of letter D from the verb used instead of the more accurate Love. But I never mentioned it. Cause you see, I'd want to properly divide my life into the past, the present and the future. And obviously, I am trying so hard to categorize and make you as simply a part of my past.

I don't want you to be like a shadow always following me, always hanging around me, always haunting me every time I attempt to move on. I don't want to hope. I no longer want to be hurt. Because I was, I am...still...and the fact that you have no idea--- much more did not do it in purpose, doesn't cancel it out--- doesn't change anything.

I don't want to be in love with you anymore cause the truth is, it's easier for me to deal with you as the one who got away--- since that was your choice after all. Nobody forced you Not to choose me. But I should never allow you to be the one that never left my heart, never left my mind, just because I never even tried to forget.

I think I am better off this way. Alone. No please, don't pity me. The thing is, falling in love and trying to make a certain someone fall in love with you and then trying to stay in love and forcing yourself to fall out of love with someone who will never love you back is much much much more exhausting than being alone.

So yeah, I guess there are far more worse things than being alone.

I think,

I've been under a lot of stress lately. With my company losing our biggest account, me being transferred to a different account, retraining and refresher classes, me being transferred for the first time in the morning shift after 2 years of graveyard shifts, Dad's phone call, CISCO classes --- too many changes, too many things to do --- sometimes I don't know if I simply just have a little free time to spare or if time simply flies too fast for me.

There's only one thing that's keeping me sane these days --- something that's making my stressful life less stressful --- my capoeira classes.

Yep, I enrolled myself in some Brazilian martial arts class (just in case you are not familiar with it). I joined the said class just for the fun of it since my office friend Sue seems to be too eager to have her self enrolled. I remember that time when she invited me to join. I said I'll think about it. She replied I should not think about it, I just got to go there and just sign myself up. I thought maybe she's right. I've been over thinking things lately and so maybe I need something that would require me less thinking --- so capoeira class it is.

And I am having a blast! I'm done with my first month and I gained a few pounds shortly after cause I got my appetite back. It just feels good to be physically active --- like sweat all I want --- stay healthy --- and yeah learn acrobatics. =P I never thought time will eventually come that I'd get to learn acrobatics.

Just imagine me doing this:


or this...


and this...


LOL.

Unfortunately, I still can't do those stunts above. Those are shots of my Instructor Jensen by the way. But watch-out---I'll eventually will. =P Can't wait for January. It'll be my capoeira Batizado (baptism). I'd get my first belt. ^_^

All work and no play makes Kristine a dull girl.

Thank God for Capoeira. Definitely better than any anti-stress medicine.

I ought to write about this tomorrow. When I already have enough sleep. When I can say that I am fully calm --- when the reality had already sink in. But then again, it doesn't really matter if I write about it today or tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. After all that's about it.

Doesn't change anything.

I'm deeply saddened today. Guess there's no other way to describe it. Plain and simple: I just feel sad. You might be wondering why. After-all if you know me you can hardly see me frown. I remember one time an office mate asked me if I've ever been angry. She said it's hard for her to imagine me in such state. I had taken that as a compliment. At the same time that got me thinking: is this really the real me?

But I don't want to talk about that (at least for now). There were just some recent unexpected happenings in the office that made me sad---depressed in away. And though I really can't give out the full details, the gist of the story is, I've lost some office friends along the way. Let's just say that starting today, I will never see some of those familiar faces I've shared my nights and days with for months now and even for some---for almost a year now.

The fact that I was one of those who were "lucky" to be saved first doesn't alleviate the feeling of sadness. Maybe I just got to consider this as one of those "experience-is-what-you-get-when-you-did-not-get-what-you-wanted-lesson". An eye-opener/a reminder to hold on to what you have right now, to cherish it, to take care of it, to nurture it...cause you'll never know, tomorrow you might lost it all: may it be your special friend, a favorite toy, or even your job.

Can I consider myself lucky that I had others experience that for me in order to realize it? Will I consider myself fortunate enough that I'm not of one those who learned the lesson the hard way? Maybe. Maybe not.

Sometimes, there's just really no easy way to compromise.

And yeah, me feeling sad doesn't change anything anyway.

As usual, I'll just get by the thought that this too shall pass and that everything ends up fine most of the time anyway.

And that for the most part, I am fine.

I think.

We had our 2010 company outing last May 31 at Cordova Reef, located at Mactan Cebu. It was a fun day. I had my first ever banana boat ride and I never ever imagined in my entire existence that I'd find myself floating in the middle of the sea but I did. I don't trust myself much as a swimmer so Thank God for life jackets. ^_^

Buffet food, overflowing ice tea (if only ice tea can get you drunk I could have been drunk that day. lol), henna tattoo and again the highlight of the day is the banana boat ride. I got to ride it twice. wohooo!!! It was really awesome. Wicked! Yes, it was wickedly awesome!

Anyway, not really in the mood to describe everything in words so let the pictures do the talking.XD

land trip! wohooo!

si sup Sue at May.ka-bus-mates.=P

nakarating din. syempre, picture agad!

banana boat ride! ba't ba kasi ang layo ng shot. -_-silent prayer: buti nga walang shark.=P

kung walang life jacket ewan ko na lang sayo.=P

henna raw.

Me, Ossi, and Justin. Uwian na!

Me and Polly. Uwian na talaga! good thing no sunburn for me^_^


Summer is officially over. Have to wait for another year again before we could experience this season again. Well, I never had any summer fling or summer love. I don't know why all of the sudden I mentioned that. haha. But at least even just one time I get to feel what it's like to feel the summer heat in the beach.

I don't consider myself as a beach bum but it's definitely nice to spend some quality time with nature from time to time. Especially if everything is for free.^_^

How will you spend the day before your birthday? Maybe for most of us, we'd only regard it as another ordinary day. After all, what's worth celebrating about this day? It's like the death of your current age. Maybe one would even wallow and grieve especially for those who just hate getting old. Or maybe again for most of us, we'd just continue with our mundane life as if nothing is about to end. Maybe that's the right attitude: avoid the drama.

But maybe I am not one those "most of us". Cause here I am actually, writing about this kind of day: my last day as a 22-year old girl. Funny, I stopped for a minute and argued within myself whether I'd go for girl or woman. That reminded me of a Britney song. lol.

Anyway, I haven't really made anything extraordinary today. I was actually hoping I could do something extreme like some edge-coaster ride or bungee jumping or some zip-line experience maybe. Or something that I could do that would give me valid reason to shout on top of my lungs then I'd go on laughing out loud till I cry due to excitement, fear and sadness at the same time. Maybe then I'd get to release all of my life's sentimentality. Then maybe after that I could just simply grab a cup of coffee, sit in the corner of my favorite coffee shop and relive that moment.

Well, the extreme-part is totally not possible of course (or just maybe I simply have cold feet). So I opted for the coffee part. I went to my favorite coffee shop wearing this tattered old jeans, old faded tees and old black slippers. Funny how my old garments makes me feel so young. And I really didn't care if I was with a company of fashionable-corporate-looking customers. I was holding my journal when I ordered my coffee then Mr. Barista asked if my classmates will be joining me in a bit. It took me a full minute to fully comprehend the question before I responded that No, I am alone for now.

OK. The outfit and the notebook have done their part VERY well.

Or maybe that barista guy is simply not accustomed with "students" spending their afternoon chitchats alone.

Well, although I could say that I do love the company of my family and friends, I'd always love to take some time out alone. Completely alone. Like dine out or watch movie alone. Whatever. No-one left to act normal for. No need to hide who I really am. It's definitely… freeing.

There are those instances like now that I wish I could just sleep all day, and forget the world that exists outside of my slumber. Then just dream about what life could have been or what life can actually bring.

And then I'd try to look back and see the story of my life flash before me then I'd realize I haven't really lived life yet in its entirety.

After all I'm only 22. Ok. Almost 23 now. And when I look myself in the mirror I'd asked myself what have you become? And naturally, I’ll ask more questions that I really don’t want to know the answers to.

Again, ignorance, really, is bliss. Denial then is healthier than I had ever assumed.

Geez. Sorry, I think the last 5 paragraphs are out of the topic. Anyway, like what I have said, I am just another drama-queen tonight. But yeah, I am just thankful for this life. I thank God that I have more blessings more than downfalls. I thank God that I have more friends more than enemies. And I thank God that I have more love to give more than to hate. And that if I am to relive my last 22 years, I'd still choose to live with the people who loves me and with the haters who had made me strong.

And so in behalf of my young-haywired-mind, my crazy-heart speaks tonight.. and it's saying thanks and I LOVE YOU. ♥

First day of June.

Marks the end of summer and start of the rainy season and classes for students. Well, I don't know if it's a good thing that I could no longer relate for the latter but I remember writing an article about this month in one of my old blog sites. As to how this month had always been special for me. Not only because I dreamt of becoming a June bride and neither because I love walking in the rain or because I liked school. But because this month significe another digit in my years of living in this planet.

I watched Prince of Persia and the Sands of Time today and I like it. If only there's really such dagger and sand that could make it possible to go back in a certain time so you can undo all the things that have gone wrong.

Which also reminds me of the song that had been playing in my mind for the last hour: "Can we pretend that airplanes are like shooting stars in the night sky... I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now".

Maybe I'd wish for that moment when things are still so simple. Sometimes, I wish I could relive my childhood...when my only problem is someone will knock my ice cream down and mom won't let me watch TV...when ignorance is such a bliss.

Yeah, I could really use a wish right now, wish right now.

Wohoooo!!!! What more can I say?!?!?!?

Congratulations to Lee DeWyze for Winning the American Idol Season 9!!!

answered prayer!

It was definitely an amazing journey. And I am so glad I get to watched it in the big screen! Thanks to Greenwich Pizza and Star World for making it possible. A lot of freebies, food and photo sessions! And the best thing about it, everything was for free!!! Real COOL!!!

I also have my Golden Ticket!XD

We are going to Hollywood!=P

hayyyyy...still so surreal. Just like Lee's first single, This is such a Beautiful Day indeed.

Lee Dewyze

Now that the final performance is over (and though I must admit that tonight's performance of Lee is not his best), I am still rooting for him. After all, after watching AI for 9 seasons now, we all know pretty well that the final 2 performance is not much of a guarantee for the AI title. Take for instance what happened during David Cook and Kris Allen's season. And I am hoping Lee's fate would be the same.

I wouldn't mind another guitar-playing-white-guy to win for the 3rd time. And I would say that Lee's performance of Hallelujah during the top 3 performance is much like Kris Allen's Heartless which had sealed his seat for the top 2 and eventually for the title. If it's not too much to ask, history will repeat itself tomorrow. ^_^

And I am excited because I'd be watching it on the big screen. Yes, you read it right ON THE BIG SCREEN. haha. Thanks to Greenwich Pizza for the upcoming oppurtunity. XD

So if you are still in doubt if Lee does deserve to be given the title, watch this Video. It's one of my favorite Idol moment ever.

I was out for some shopping to day. It's my rest day and since I am pretty much bored gawking at my Cisco review material I decided to go out and grab something to eat that instead turned out to be a little shopping experience. Let myself indulge for some personal vanities. I bought myself some short board short (lol, hope that's not redundant). You see, we'd be having our company outing this coming Sunday and Monday so I'm trying to get ready for it. I also bought myself a pair of two piece swim wear.

LOL. Haha. kidding. =P But who knows, still got time to decide whether I'd go swimming or not.XD haha. Such a girly stuff.

Talking about girly stuffs, an office mate asked me straight out if I finally have a boyfriend. The answer is a big NO of course. She said she thought I already have one cause I was wearing this tight-fitting black jeans, blouse and a pair of sandals. Just let me say this once, ehem: she said I'm pretty and sexy. LOL. OK. I'll leave it at that. I'll set aside my bravado from here on.

But come to think about it, I think it's just a natural reaction of other people to see me in a different kind of outfit. Take for instance the other night. I decided to go for work wearing this little black dress and I did not intend to create a little commotion but I guess I did. Common questions/reactions includes: What's wrong with you? What have you eaten? Did you came from a date? Do you have a date right after work?

Haha. Crazy questions. I'd just laugh out loud and tell them that I am still in a non-sober state so that's why I thought of this crazy idea. And you don't actually need to have a boyfriend to actually look good. And I'd jokingly add that I'm already 22 (almost 23 now) and definitely needs some change.

But yes, it definitely feels good to look good and feel good inside-out. I still don't think I am now fashionable. Blue jeans, tees and rubber shoes are still the best for me and they will forever be my fashion sense.

I just find it amusing to surprise people and prove them wrong that I could actually wear this dress or walk naturally with heels. It's really really amusing.

And I think somebody from the office has a crush on me. LOL. OK OK. I'll leave it at that again.

But I'm feeling real good today. It really helps to have a long good night sleep. Not to mention my dream. But that would be a different story. Yeah maybe a different blog entry.^_^

I've had 6 bottles of GPS in take in just a week time. Although it's not really an everyday habit like I'd have a bottle today, then skip it tomorrow, then have 4 bottles the next day, skip it again and another one the next next day. I don't know how many bottles of liquor one should drink before you'd tag him/her as a drunkard. But I think I am becoming one. LOL.

But seriously thinking about it, what's really happening to me? I mean, definitely, this is not me. But yeah, maybe that's the new me: The Drunkard in the making. LOL.

Haha. Yeah. Sorry, I'm trying to be serious here but anyway, I think there's nothing remotely wrong with drinking as long as it's moderate and you won't skip work, or that you won't spend your entire budget to that perk. And most especially, as long as you are with the people you trust. In my case back here in Cebu, there are only 2 instances that I'd dare myself to grab a bottle of liquor. One, if I'm with Mark---my brother's best friend/my classmate/my-tagalog-movie-watching-buddy. And Two, if I'm with Sue---my supervisor/ fellow single, smart, sexy and successful lady (SSSSL). XD

As I come to think about it, I can honestly say that my non-blogging days is not just because I'm busy at work (I still am) but because I've found some way to somehow spend my free time with other people. Although I still do occasionally watch movies alone, dine out alone or go malling alone. I think some quality time alone is something we all need and personally hard for me to give up.

In vino veritas. In wine there's the truth.

Somehow that's my logic every time I chug down a bottle of GPS although technically of course that's not a wine. That maybe under the influence of alcohol I might as well blurt it all out then blame my non-sober state for saying such things. But yeah, maybe that's just me. That even though I feel like my world's already spinning and going round and round I still will not entirely talk about it. Guess we just have our own way of being boozed up.

Sometimes I wonder: What would you do if I'm drunk and you're the reason for it?

Cause if there's any confession I would make for such muddled state that would be a broken promise to myself that I will never drink because of a guy.

Guess I just did.

Politics.

It came from two root words: Poly and Ticks. Poly meaning many and Ticks meaning blood sucking insects. Ticks are considered as parasites. They live longer at the expense of their hosts. Who ever thought of coining the word politics might have thought of the same way. After all, we can more or less compare most of our politicians to this kind of pest.

In totality: Politics for me then means: That's a lot of parasites.

It's the first ever automated election that our country ever had. It's pretty amazing. Although, if there's something I can complain, I fall in line longer than I did 3 years ago. But the agony of waiting for the election results is definitely shorter than the last elections this country had. It took only more or less 24 hours for us to know who will most likely lead this country for the next 3 or 6 years. It only took 24 hours to know that though the mode of election of this country had changed, the mentality of its people still remain stagnant.

The election results is disappointing. And yes that's because of course most of the people I've voted did not make it. You can say I am a bitter but it's really frustrating to see the names of those people who obviously simply won because of popularity and not because they are competent enough to do the job.

And you know what's really frustrating me? Is seeing the name of that person we all had condemned because of corruption going head to head for the race for Presidency. Are we Pinoy really this forgiving? Voting for somebody (again) who had been convicted of Plunder? It's really true then, we are the most forgiving people. Or maybe I'm wrong. We can change that then to the most forgetful people. Or maybe we are just simply say we are just plain stupid.

At tingnan mo yung senado, may plano atang gumawa ng Action movie: Bong Revilla, Jinngoy Estrada and Lito Lapid?!?!?! WTF!!!!!! we can add Tito Sotto on the list as well pwede na silang gumawa ng isang corny na pinoy movie.

Oh well, that's the thing about democracy, we have to go with the majority. We just got to respect what most people think is good for this country. Or maybe we can just give these new leaders some benefit of the doubt. Let's give them a chance to prove their worth. And I genuinely wish I am wrong with being prejudice over them.

But I don't know... I just can't help but wonder when will this country finally grow up.

When will we ever learn?

My back is aching from sitting all day. I lack sleep or make that I haven't really slept at all. This suppose to be 7-8 hour trip was extended to 11 hours. The heat was excruciating. I longed for bed. For my weary eyes to close. But I wasted 3 hours of my life before I finally saw the fairy-boat. I overheard a guy saying that there was an engine trouble. Of all days of the week, of all occasions, it happened today.

Just my luck.

Note to self: Buy a plane ticket as early as possible if you're planning to go home. It can save you time, energy and sanity.

Back in the office, whenever someone will ask me why I'm going home this weekend, my usual response was, I'm going home for election. Of course there's truth in it. This right to suffrage only comes once every three years and of course I want to exercise it. But more than that reason, I know I badly needed rest. Like a total withdrawal from work. I have to take time to find some way to relax and to at least cool my head down and find genuine happiness. Don't get me wrong. Of course I am happy at work. It's just that I've been so into it that I sometimes dream of it or wake up and it's the very first thought the enters my mind. I think that's a manifestation that I do love my work. LOL. I mean, just like when you love this person, he's the last thought before you go to sleep and your first when you woke up. LOL. But in reality of course, that could only mean one thing: STRESS.

And so I thought I badly need to find some way to put a smile on that face.

And election time is such a great escape to go home.

And so I'll try not to think of the pending cases, of the 2 beefy books that I have to study, of the upcoming quiz this Saturday. I'll try not to think of my crush. lol

But yeah, it's just so good to be back.^_^

I am a believer of long distance relationship. Meaning, I do believe that it's totally possible for two individuals to nurture and make a relationship work although they are literally thousand of miles apart. I'm a believer cause I have my mom and dad as living example. I've been a witness of such kind of relationship for more than 22 years now. I would say, it takes more than love for a relationship such as that to actually work.

But don't worry, I'm not going to write about my parents love story. lol. Not for one bit. It's just a premise of this suppose to be movie review of Dear John that was put on hold for a such a long time now. The story of course obviously is pretty much about that kind of situation --- a long distance love affair. How long can you wait for the one you love to actually come back?

But I won't talk much about the movie though. To put it straight on, Channing Tatum is the only reason why this movie is worth watching. But aside from that, just don't expect anything much from it. I've read the book and I'm afraid that I have to add this to my list of "Great books, Bad movie adaptation: the living proofs that Hollywood can ruin your favorite novel."

That being said I think I just got to stick more with the first topic I mentioned: Long Distance Love Affair. lol. Really, Pardon me if you think I am going nuts that I keep on laughing while actually writing a suppose to be melancholic, melodramatic topic. I just can't help remembering something/someone. But anyway, snap back to reality, I think this is one of the most discussed topics of all times. And I have found everything ever written about it to be true. It can work. But for most people it just didn't. But again: it can work cause of course it requires hard work. Well, I guess, modern technology had taken a great part and had helped out a lot of people who are stuck in this kind of situation. Internet, telephones and even snail mail turns priority mail are there for a reason.

Of Waiting and Patience.

Here I go again. ^_^

Sometimes I think that waiting for that particular someone is like waiting for your turn in a doctor's clinic. You're the patient of course and you are waiting for a doctor to examine you. You enter the clinic. The doctor's attendant smiles at you (or they don't -_-). Gives you a form to fill up. Takes your body weight and height. And for some clinic they give you a number then you sat down in one of those long bench together with the other patients with nothing to look at but the Doctor's Awards and Certificates that were all hanged in the wall for the patients to know that their specialist is a-"somebody", a couple of used magazines in the stand and a big-as-in-BIG wall clock directly facing you. Something to constantly reminds you what time is it.

Tik Tok. Tik Tok.

Or how long you had been sitting there waiting for your turn to finally come.

For some, the moment they stepped in the doctor's office, they were lucky enough to get examined right away. Maybe they had made early appointments, or maybe their cases are really in dire need of immediate attention. As for you, you just stayed in there, waiting patiently with the other patients who seemed to have the same fate as you. Sometimes you get to doze off. And sometimes, you felt as if you're just in a dream. A dream so good enough it makes you don't wanna wake up cause you know you'll be back to the waiting part again the moment you wake up.

No wonder, patient is defined as bearing or enduring pain, difficulty, provocation, or annoyance with calmness. Or you can also regard that as a person who needs medical attention, care, or treatment. Either way, it doesn't really matter.

Well, you had both waited to actually find each other right? So right now that some instances simply made it impossible for both of you to be together, why not keep on waiting? To make it happen, you got to take risks & hope for the best. It doesn't really matter which part of the world you are in right now: Iraq, Canada, United Kingdom or Jeddah. =P Sometimes, you just got to be contented with whatever communication you both had as long as it stays. As long as it keeps you both connected. That you'd think that for the briefest instant, it almost feels like you are together again.


Then all you can just say is: Been there, done that.. and yah I miss it.. I miss you.

She had been one of my favorites for this season. Or make that the only one among the girls that I actually rooted for. And it's sad that she got eliminated. Such a SHOCKER! But then again, if you had been watching AI since season one you'll know pretty well that anything can happen. At least we still got Lee. If Lee will be eliminated, then I could honestly really say that it's really high time for American Idol to take some rest.

Well, at least again we can say that she got voted off not because she had an awful performance. Her performance last night was definitely one of her best. And I got her Any Man of Mine studio version on my playlist now.

Siobhan Magnus. Such an awesome girl with an interesting, one of a kind personality.

Bye. at least for now.



Will personally miss you on AI. T_T

When Alex was booted out of the competition I thought this AI's season is a goner. But thank to this guy, he changed my mind. Two words: Dark Horse.

And his version of You're Still the One tonight just make me wanna swoon all over him and yeah...makes me wanna fall in love.^_^

like what Ellen said: You couldn't look cuter. ♥♥♥

Oh well. Lee DeWyze, FTW!