I met this weird little girl some few years back
When I'm in school I'm with her all day long
And so I knew her from then on.

The only one with toddler's feet
With Lizzie's voice (only when she speaks)
She even got Hermione brain and hair.

But she's no material girl
Though she could dance like step-up girl
And she could even bring it on the cheer.
And she...

Could speak a hundred words under a minute
Answer every question if she'd wanted to
Never want to see her sad face on (or you'll be sorry)
Deprecate me or even sue me but she's
Your no-sugar-coated friend.

This little girl grew up fast
Though she could still fit in a Barbie's box
But her heart fell in love though she still won't say who it was

And she won't even tell you that
the right one has come along
She'd rather keep things on her own But she...

Could speak a hundred words under a minute
(she could stop and listen if you want her to)
Answer every question but
Never pretend she's always right
Deprecate me but I'd still say she's not
Your sugar-coated friend

I met this weird little girl some few years back and from then on
We've been together and I know I'll never find another
weird...little friend like her.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOTS!

Ikaw ang pinakatam-is nga Kendi nga natilawan ko. lol. Mwah. love yah.^_^

I had never doubted Rain (Bi) as an action star. After seeing his Korean series A Love to Kill he had indeed emerged from a boy-next-door to a bad-boy image. And in this first ever Hollywood film that he had, he sure do can kick some ass.

Rain portrayed a role of Raizo, a former Ozunu Clan member. Ozunu Clan is a secret society who trains orphans to be ninja assassins. But when his friend was executed by the Clan, he separated from them and plotted his revenge. On the other hand, Mika Coretti (Naomie Harris), a Europol agent, linked the existence of the Ozunu Clan to a series of murders. It does made her a target for the ninjas. Raizo saved Mika from the plotted assassination. Together then, they have to help each other in order for Raizo to complete his vengeance and for Mika and the Europol to bring down the Clan.

Personally, I find the story shallow. And though the fight scenes and the effects are really good, some really looks absurd and far from reality. Like that scene when Raizo planted a knife to a guy's neck and the guy still managed to fight him back. That's like crazy! Neck is suppose to be a fatal part of the body. I also find the "capability to heal" absurd. Wait till you see the ending so you'll understand why.

If I am to think of this movie first thing that comes to mind: gore. You'd be able to see blood 80% of the movie. Blood, blood, blood and lot of blood. This is definitely not for the squeamish.

Good thing I was not alone when I watched this movie. Got a bit of distraction. XD

Anyway, if I am to base it in this movie, this is not the Rain that I prefer. I love Rain more as a Korean-pop superstar and a rom/com actor.

Rating: ★☆☆☆☆

It's sad to think that right after the victory of Manny Pacquiao, the next reason why our country hits the international news is because of the Maguindanao Massacre that lead to the death of 47 people and maybe counting. It's even sadder to think that the root of such abomination is because of politics, because of the greediness for power, because of the ultimate desire to win the election.

Why is it so hard to play it fair? Why is there a need for such ruthless means? Why is it so hard to give-up power---to accept defeat?

At first, I don't want to write something about this. After all, much had been said about this topic. And the story, the picture of all those innocent victims whose lives are wasted because of greed still makes me cringe, and that though I don't know any of them, they made me cry. I am grieving not much like a loss from an immediate family. I am grieving because this country's democracy is giving its people freedom indeed. The freedom to hurt his fellow countrymen. The freedom to kill.

But I feel responsible to write. To express my thoughts about this, to condemn such action, and though my voice may be small and may not be heard but as long as I'd get to tell even just one fellow Filipino maybe I could start a change---a ripple effect.

Who am I by the way? You might ask. Who am I to teach/preach nationalism? My portfolio doesn't include any political affiliations, neither am I an active participant of an NGO and most especially, I am not a leftist.

Yes, I am one of those who had been lurking for a long time. The minority who had been lurking for a long time. The minority who had been outside the fence looking in/listening to the bantering of the pro and the anti. But what's good is there in lurking?

In the end it will still boils down with me being a Filipino---an ordinary Filipino---and I feel that this is what our country needs---an ordinary Filipino to realize his/her worth. An ordinary Filipino to realize that there's something he/she can do aside from taking everything in to the streets. Millions of ordinary Filipinos realizing/living what REAL freedom means. An ideal society is never far from reality if such mentality will be applied in our daily ordinary lives.

It's hard to promote nationalism when the world views our country with violence. It's hard to answer the question Are you proud to be Pinoy when you know your countrymen is killing another Filipino for money and power. Manny Pacquiao, Charice Pempengco, Ariel Pineda, Lea Salonga, Rice Terraces and Palawan seems to be insufficient reasons to blaze that passion of patriotism. It's hard to be a patriot cause you know your enemy is a fellow Filipino. Unlike the heroes from our history books who fought for our freedom versus other nationalities, the fight right now is more difficult cause it's among us. But either way, the loser will still be the same: Our Country.

You might ask me then, what's my proposal as a resolution, as a mean to end all of these. To be honest, I still don't know. All I know is that this country is almost broken beyond repair. And all I know right now is that this is the most important thing: for us to recognize that there is something wrong. We had long known that there's something wrong with this nation. But we're always blinded or we always nonchalantly look into our country's situation.

Apathy---this is the last thing that we must feel towards our nation.

This is not the time to label one as Christians or Muslims. For in the eyes of the world, we're all Filipinos. Those who died from the massacre are just a small percentage of our countrymen who had wasted their lives for all the wrong reasons.

I am heart-broken.

My heart weeps for those who died. My heart yearns for justice. My heart prays for peace. My heart is still desperately loving this country.

Jesus, Allah, Buddha and Shiva...Please, make this country endure.

I had been restless for the last couple of days. It feels like I was looking for something I'm not even sure what could that be.

Yes, I know how that sounds.

I don't want to sound melodramatic but that's just how it feels like.

I came in and out of movie houses hoping the big screen can give me something new to think about. I stayed hours reading in a bookshop which serves coffee as well. If only coffee can get me drunk, I might be wasted right now. But the smell of books mixed with coffee is just what I need to calm my restless self.

Come to think about it, those are nothing new. Somehow I want to do away with my usual favorite past time these days --- sleeping. But whenever I'm awake, there's just too much thoughts encumbering my mind that I feel like emptying it all up so I could start filling the cup once again.

I just can't stop thinking about it. I mean of the possibilities and the what ifs.

I want to know if I am pretty enough, smart enough, funny enough---enough for him to pick me out of the masses.

What if I am not? What if this is just another day spent by the sea? What if there's nothing really special about this? What if I am just in love with the possibilities?

I know what ifs are not good starters. But it's just so tempting. It's very much tempting for me to look in the mirror and see that it's written all over my face that there's nothing more than a girl who had been hoping/waiting too much.

When I was still six, we used to have a mango tree at home which bears fruits really really good especially during summer. I'm always excited whenever my brothers would climb the tree and go down with a basket full of mangoes. My usual task was to wash those and so I always get to choose first. There are only 2 things I was not allowed to do: climb the tree and peel the mangoes. My mom does the peeling.

I remember one time I have a particular mangoe in hand that I just can't wait to eat. My mom was still inside the house and naturally, I have to wait or peel the mango my self. Kids instinct --- I chose the latter one.

I had a knife in hand and held the mango just like the way mom usually does. I started imitating mom, rotating the fruit while slowly, the mango skin got peeled off. Oh well, you might have guess what happened next. Ten seconds later, the suppose to be yellow-green mango turned red from the cut I inflicted to my self.

I got reprimanded by my mom of course. But later on, in between my sobs and my mom medicating my cut was a motherly lesson on how important it is to wait, of how important patience is.

Funny that though the wound is now completely healed and the scar is no longer visible, sixteen-years later, it's amazing to think that I am still trying to learn the same lesson.



Kris Allen - Written All Over My Face

I am not an expert at this letting go thing. No, don't even think about it for one bit. But this is the only topic I could think of and seems to be fitting to be the last article I'd write relating about the 500 Days of Summer movie.

It must be 5. Aside from the fact that 500 begins with 5, 5 is my favorite number as well. And the topic must be something to do with closure. Closure with a positive look.

I called it an art for letting go obviously will never be considered as science. After all, there's no basic formula on how to let go. What might have worked for me might not work for you.

From the movie, whenever Tom's friends and sister will urge him to move on, to forget about Summer, he'd always say No, he can't. And of course friends will always think of all those soothing words like there's still a lot of fish in the sea and that it's not the first ever break up he had. But naturally, just like any broken person, Tom was obstinate to accept those facts. Those aren't fish. They're guppies. No, she is different. I can't forget her cause She is Summer.

True isn't it? Personally, I've been on that stage. Memory is such a powerful thing. You would feel like you will never get over the one who broke your heart or your life can't go on without them. Hanging on is such a natural thing to do.

I remembered writing an article that's somehow related to this. From that article I pointed out that there are two kinds of people when it comes to love. One would be the type that falls in love over and over again and the other type would be the one that can only seem to do it once. But the more I get to understand IT, the more I realize that there's one truth about it: You can do IT over and over again.

For falling love is like a force of nature --- it can not be predicted....and although sometimes you can foresee it, it can not be stopped. But most of all, it destroys only to always start something new.

True, we can be destroyed so many times. But always, all the time, something new begins.

I know it's more romantic to say that in our lifetime we only have one great love. Often times, that's true as well. We'd only have one great love. But another truth is, no matter how great that love is, it doesn't necessarily mean it's also the right one or we'd end up with that person.

Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life. May 23rd was a Wednesday.

May 23. What a coincidence. Of all dates we got 523.

But anyway, just remember that just like what happened to Tom, we have to realize that after Summer there's Autumn.

Kris Allen - I Need To Know

Click on play button for background music.^_^

It's not going to be a date.

I keep on repeating that line over my head.

Somehow I'm still wondering until now how it actually started. Or why the sudden attention. I don't want to expect. But just like any other girl, it's difficult not to.

There are just instances in my life right now that I never saw coming. Situations that I'd rather keep the tales to my self. I'd rather be selfish about the details. Yes I know that this blog site is my online journal but there are just some things I'd rather write in my handwritten journal, share only with my closest friends or maybe with my brother alone. Some things I'd rather keep private.

All I can say right now is that it's hyprotical to say that I am not flattered by all these attention. As a girl, it always feels nice to be noticed especially from the opposite sex. It makes you feel wanted. It makes you feel good inside. It makes you take a second look at the mirror and you can't help but talk to your reflection and say: You look great girl.

I know to my self that I am no being of physical perfection. I am rather flawed in every way possible. No. I know I'll never be like those super models who can still look hot even in rags. Nor do I plan to make use of science to make me look like one. I feel no inferiority for I know I'm beautiful in ways that mean something beyond superficiality. A beautiful mind...A beautiful heart...A beautiful sense of maturity...A beautiful sense of life...A beautiful grasp of faith.

I know it's hard to get away from the world's supeficiality but only if we can recognize the beauty we own, perhaps we'll all wake up with smile in our face and we'll all begin to see who we are at best.

It's hard to be contented but often times it's the discontent that's making everything difficult.

For now all I need is to know if all these expectations will lead me to something. After all, up until now he had yet to confess his true motive or if there's something else beyond the need to borrow the book or the desire to explore the city. Somehow I can't help but wish that the main reason he'd be here is to see me. Maybe that's too much to ask. And I'm not even sure that I'd be able to reciprocate IT if I am indeed the reason why. After all, what do I know about him beyond school stuffs?

But yes maybe my romanticism is just getting in the way again: The in dire need to tell my own story.

But Can you show me? Can you make me believe?

Yes I need to know.

It's only when my supervisor asked us to already submit our vacation leave forms for the Christmas holidays did it occur to me that the Yuletide Season is indeed coming up. Last year, I was unable to make use of my allowable planned absences cause I decided too late and my previous supervisor won't approve of any absences anymore. I had to be contended with my normal day offs. And of course for this year, I don't want that to happen again.

But I'm still undecided as to when will I start my planned vacation. I'm thinking of starting it on the 28th or on the 30th of December. Of course having it before Christmas is out of the question. With the nature of my job, working during holidays is part of the job description. So I have to choose between Christmas and New Year. I'd go for the latter one.

Anyway for now, I only have 25 days left before the Cosplay Christmas party but I still don't have any specific character to portray. Holidays are great. But most of the time it comes with a price.

And lately, I've been doing nothing exceptional aside from sleeping. I think I'm becoming narcoleptic. I need new books to keep me up, need to drink more coffee or maybe a someone to keep me up would be better as well. lol. kidding. =p

hayyyy....boring boring boring....Where's the love in between all of these?


kidding again.


All right. So much for the blabbers indeed.

Wow. Chris Weitz played it by the book.

That's my over-all assessment after watching this most publicized movie of the year from the Twilight Saga: New Moon.

So that would actually make you think that the movie was good then. Well, the movie has it's own good and bad points. blah blah blah. Same old story.

But to cut the long story short then and for sure every critic out there would all agree, after watching this movie hardcore fans will be satisfied but outsiders are likely to be turned off by its slow pace, relentlessly downcast tone, and excessive length. That's actually the consensus from rotten-tomatoes.

Well, where to start...

First thing, I love the Twilight Saga. At least for the book version. And I think that will remain as it is if I am to base it on the first two movie adaptation of this book series.

The thing that's pulling down the movie adaptations of this saga: Bad Acting by the lead cast itself: Rob and Kirsten. Up until now, I am still not satisfied with Rob portraying Edward Mason Cullen. I mean, if you had read the book you'd definitely say that Pattinson is not the Edward you'd imagine to be. I just don't get it why a lot of girls goes gaga over him these days. Yah, maybe they are more in love with the character and since he is the one playing it, he gets to get the limelight. I am in love with the character but definitely not with Rob. And Kristen, she's only good with the moping-kind-of-acting which lucky her it's pretty much needed in this film. But jeeeezzzzz....I just, I don't know, I don't seem to see the intensity or the chemistry that Bella and Edward is suppose to have.

But of course there are good parts as well. There's Dakota Fanning for instance. She must teach Kristen what real acting is all about. Her role is short but she definitely outshines Kristen during those scenes. Michael Sheen is also great as Aro. Just the way I imagined Aro to be. And the Wolf pack, I thought I'd be disappointed with the group, but they're all goody and the werewolves version were good as well.

But the the most thrilling part of the movie. or make that the best part all in all would be Taylor who's playing the part of Jacob stripping and showing off his buff bod. lol. It was actually crazy cause of course I was more or less expecting that the crowd I'd be with would be mostly consists of teenagers but I still can't help but laugh at their reactions everytime there's a romantic/cheesy scene on the screen. And the first time Jacob took his shirt off the crowd goes Oooooooooo. That would include me.XD Yum! =p

It's a bit disappointing. I liked this sequel because of it's dark theme. Edward left Bella...Bella found companionship with Jacob...Jacob falls in love with Bella...Bella still can't get over Edward but still gave Jacob a chance (girls are really mean)...Bella and Edward reunited...Jacob left alone and dejected...This is the sequel that is rich with great heart-ache quotes so that's why I love it.lol. But I mean, if we've remove the vampire and werewolf thing, we could turn this in to something anybody can relate to: first love, first heartache.

Well, to conclude things here, the most anticipated movie of the year could have ended up to be the most disappointing film. Thank god for CGI effects, Dakota and Taylor. This movie is bearable to be seen.

So much for that, here's the movie poster.



I mean here.=p





Rating: ★★☆☆☆

This is my 100th post. Wow! It took me 8 months to reach this number. So I was thinking what would be a worthy article to mark this day. And of course vanity got in the way. And since this blog is entitled with those 3 Rs, here's the 100 Random Rants and Ramblings that I could think of as of the moment.

1. I've never tried smoking and I don't think I will ever will.

2. Same is true with drugs.

3. I hate it when someone is smoking in public especially in public transportation. If you want to die please don't include me.

4. I hate house music. That's why I don't go to disco houses or night clubs.

5. First music instrument I learned to play is a recorder.

6. First song I learned is Wooden Heart.

7. I'm not a Taylor Swift fan but I love all her songs.

8. I joined a band back in college and we called it: "No crying over spoiled milk".

9. If anybody will ask me point blank what's my favorite song I'd always think of The Distance by Evan and Jaron right away.

10. I would almost always fall for any guy who can play guitar/piano wih smooth vocals.

11. My favorite band is Rascal Flatts.

12. Song that best describe my life: Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson.

13. I hate my second name when I was still in school.

14. I'm known in the office by my second name.

15. I finally learned to love my second name.

16. I don't mind eating and watching movies alone.

17. I love cheese.

18. #17 has a double meaning.

19. First video game I successfully finished was Twisted Metal.

20. My favorite player was Sweet Tooth.

21. Speaking of sweet tooth I love sweets.

22. One of the hardest question would be to choose what is the best dessert: cake or ice cream.

23. My most watched movie is A Walk to Remember and I still keep on crying every-time I do so.

24. My most read book is Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger.

25. Pet Peeves includes falling in line, dog ears and know-it-all attitude.

26. I hate it when somebody rearranges my stuffs.

27. My most hated household chore is doing laundry.

28. I don't know how to cook.

29. I'm more of a microwave, instant, fast-food/restaurant person.

30. So much for the plan of becoming a good wife and mom.

31. Contingency plan: Marry a chef.

32. Another back up plan: Will study culinary arts.

33. #32 is expensive. I think #31 is a better plan.

34. My target age of settling down is 28.

35. My dream house includes a library, music room with espresso machines in every room.

36. I've always been considered as one of the boys.

37. That's actually an advantage since I prefer men over women.

38. My best friend is a guy.

39. But I have 5 best girl friends.

40. I think my youngest brother will be a heart-breaker when he grows up.

41. So is my younger sister.

42. They're both good looking and charming kids.

43. I came from a family of heart-breakers.

44. Just kidding with #43 but you can ask my gang if I'm telling the truth.

45. I'm a member of an all-girls group called JMVECK.

46. I'm the best looking among the group since I'm best known as the heart-breaker.

47. I'm again just kidding for #46 but again you can ask my gang if I'm telling the truth.

48. The truth is I'm the only one who have a zero-love-life right now.

49. I have a feeling that they will disagree with #48

50. When I was still in school I sleep less, now that I'm working I spend my rest days sleeping.

51. Sleeping is more than a necessity these days, it's a luxury.

52. Favorite subject back in college is Electronics. Specialty is doing laboratory works.

53. Favorite teacher was my Calculus teacher back in College.

54. I hate my 2nd oldest brother whenever he'd comb his hair in front of the mirror.

55. I don't know, I just hate looking at him looking at the mirror most especially if he'd divide his hair in to two. It reminds me of Willard.

56. I'm a Gemini so that makes me schizophrenic.

57. I hate bringing umbrellas.

58. I like men who always carry one.

59. I can only finish solving 2/3 of a Rubik cube.

60. I have handwritten journals.

61. I named it Uchiha after Uchiha Sasuke from Naruto.

62. So I usually start my entry with Dear Mr. Uchiha instead of Dear Diary.

63. I love walking that's why I'm always wearing flats.

64. My favorite movie food is a KFC chicken fillet with large fries and large pepsi.

65. Favorite coffee flavor is White Chocolate Mocha.

66. I like my instant coffee black --- no sugar, no cream.

67. Favorite Frappe is Choco Java Chip.

68. I don't know how to drive but I'm planning to take driving lessons.

70. I'm also seriously considering taking dancing lessons.

71. Top 5 cities I want to go: 1. Palawan 2. Paris 3. New York 4. Seoul 5. Tokyo

72. If only budget will allow, I want to eat pizza every day of my life.

73. I love board games: Chess, Othello, Games of the Generals, Checkers, Monopoly and Snakes and Ladders.

74. I never owned a pet.

75. Oh sorry, I think I had a turtle when I was 5 but I can vaguely remember what happened to that turtle.

76. I've only been in love once.

77. I think #76 is an overrated fact.

78. There are only 3 major men that had made me cry so far: My dad, my brother and #76.

79. I'm a Kris Allen fan.

80. If you want to make me feel bad, just say something negative about him.

81. I hope Piolo Pascual is not gay.

82. I think Vampire Lestat is gay.

83. I'm hoping to go to Makati one of these days.

84. I just want to check on something.

85. I hope Harry and Hermione ended up together and Dumbledore and Snape did not die.

86. I have a Death Note.

87. So far I haven't tried writing any names on it.

88. I love McDonald's Monster Float.

89. Until now I'm still summoning the strength to watch a horror movie alone in the cinema.

90. I just realized that filling out 100 Random things in one sitting is really hard.

91. It could end up looking like a slam book.

92. I hope I'm having #65 tonight.

93. I prefer crying alone.

94. I think I should start doodling my Christmas shopping list.

95. Until now I'm still wondering what his motive is.

96. Can anybody find me somebody to love?

97. I think I'm rambling too much now.

98. Special Skill: Waiting.

99.. I've never been kissed.

100. Obviously because I'm already 22 years old and I've never had a boy-friend.

Disclaimer: The following are just views and opinion of the blogger but does not necessarily mean she had experienced or she is experiencing the scenes described. Furthermore, any resemblance in any real-life-scenarios was not intended.

We spend an average of 9 hours a day (not including day-offs) in the office. If you're still a student then you'd have it in school. But let's concentrate on the office. After all that's the setting from the movie 500 Days of Summer.

Tom had been working in a greeting-card-making company for 3 years now. We could pretty much say that his life had been built on routines and routine of course is equivalent to boredom. His work-experience though started picking-up a new kind of rhythm when he met this newbie, Summer. That of course is the first day of his 500 days experience with Summer.

In our daily office life, you could either be Tom or you could be Summer. That's actually good for the office. At least people have something to talk about in between breaks to alleviate the feeling of boredom. That is if the entire office know. If the entire office know, it's both a good and a bad thing. Good in such a way that your office-mates will be the one who'll make a way and will even conspire for both of you to be in some way be in contact. Now that would be convenient especially if you're playing Tom's role.

But it's more of a bad thing cause with all the teasing that's happening, there's always the big possibility that both will develop aloofness from each other's company. Not only that, when all else fail, the entire office might feel guilty and have pity and that's the last thing you'd want from them: pity.

But it's actually nice to work with somebody you're attracted with around. Just have to make sure though you'd consider him/her an inspiration and not a distraction. It makes the 11 seconds elevator ride worth-while when you chance to share that elevator with him. It makes the coffee break worth taking knowing he's taking his too. And when you happen to accidentally look at his way and he was looking too and you shared that silent exchange of smile, it makes the night better.

Yah, it's a good feeling. It helps make the everyday office drudgery go away.

Do you think there's such a thing as that? You are together but not entirely in some sort of a relationship? Is this where the facebook relationship status It's complicated comes in? Personally that's the last relationship status I would ever click on. But yeah maybe it's a 21st century thing: no strings attached. A boy and a girl can go out together, do some snuggling and maybe a little more than that but they're no couple. Alright, I think I'm now grasping the idea of that it's complicated status.

From the movie, Summer is a girl who doesn't believe in love and settling down is not in her list of priorities. Tom on the other hand is all for love. Summer made it clear to him that she'd only want to be friends with him but she do like him but she don't want to have a boyfriend. I think I'm confusing you here. So am I. I was thinking that Summer certainly did liked Tom but possibly she had never loved him the way he does. But I have to agree with Tom. Normal "friends" don't do some smooching or let alone have sex. So maybe they're more than friends but less than lovers. Almost lover.

Personally, I don't see the point of committing one self in such status. Although maybe that's it --- non-committal to a commitment is the answer. Maybe there's just people who doesn't like commitment. In a spur of a moment it made me think if I'm one of them too. When Summer said these words:

OK. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.

It just clicked on me. I muttered to myself: That is so true. I agree! I like being on my own...Save the serious stuffs for later.

But that set aside it just got me thinking: How important are labels? Like boy-friend/girl-friend/finance', do they really matter? Some would say it doesn't really matter as long as your happy in each others company. And why rock the boat when every thing is going well?

On the other hand with-out those labels you don't have a claim on anything. You'd have no right to get hurt, to expect more, to get jealous, to ask for more. After all what are you but mere casual acquaintance? And just like what they say: you can never lose what was never yours in the first place.

So my take in this subject, I'd never recommend an almost lover. It's either you are a couple or not. There should be nothing in between.

So my recommendation if you are caught up in this set-up, rock the boat. If your almost lover can't give a direct answer, just say tata for now and sing:

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do.

^_^

End of the world.

How many movies had tried portraying this apocalyptic topic?

There's the end of the world by flood (Day after tomorrow). Change of the Earth's core current (The Core). Invasion of Aliens (Independence Day). Earthquake (10.5). Tornadoes (Twister). And now an addition to that long list is this 2012 mayhem. End of the world due to the aligning of planets that happens only every 640,000 years. The aligning of the planets reminds me more of Hercules more than the end of the world.

I could say that definitely this is a disaster movie basing on it's main plot and how the entire movie was made. Although I have to give credit to its effects. The effects was really impressive. Somehow if I'm to think that if the end of the world will eventually happen (knock on wood) all those distractions are definitely possible or even worse than that. It showed how mother nature looks like if she's really piss off: collapsing building, tsunamis, earthquake, volcanic eruptions and not even Vatican City is immune to that.

Yes somehow it triggered some mind provoking reality like salvation has its price and faith alone can't save you. But there's something lacking from this movie. It lacks a good interesting back-story. Somehow I understand the plot of the story is pretty grand. I mean how will you end an end of the world story? But like for any other story such as that, you'll almost know that in the end mother nature will redeem her self and will bring back hope for mankind.

The movie is entertaining but not the kind I'd go watching again. I have to add this to the list of the big movies that had disappointed me so far: GI Joe, Transformers 2 and X-Men Wolverine Origins.

Recommendation? You can just wait for the DVD or for the movie to be shown on HBO. Or yeah, maybe wait for 2012 before watching it.

Rating: ★★☆☆☆

Broken. Bereft. Blue. Depressed. Desolate. Lonely. Lost. Miserable. Dejected. Forlorn. Me.

Perharps broken-heartedness is one of the overrated human emotions ever. More often, people tend to nurse this feeling more than anything else. Nursing it involves drinking, forcing self to get some sleep but ending up awake to get more drink, write dark/poetic/sad lines, miss or fail to work properly and I almost forgot: cry and cry and cry.

One of the heart-breaking scenes from the movie was when Tom went to Summer's party. He was more or less thinking that him being invited in her party might be a start of another chapter with her. Little did he know that the party was for Summer's engagement with another guy.

Yes that's it.

If I could sum-up all the cause of hurt, pain and hatred in one word it's just...EXPECTATION.

Of course there's nothing remotely wrong with expecting. Come to think about it, expecting is more inclined to be considered as something positive. It significe hope. It's more of an optimistic point of view. But more often than not as well, when these expectations won't align with reality that's when all these feeling of grief comes in. And sometimes, a person gets so use with sadness that it's hard for him/her to feel happy again.

There are things that we really need to be use to but personally, I think sadness is not one of them.

Often times, we are claiming that we can't live with out that person but the truth is we are living it everyday. Broken heartedness then is something we all experience. Some are experiencing it now, others had experienced it but for those who haven't encountered yet, better be prepared cause it'll come knocking your doors someday. There are really times were in we want to tell that person, "please say your mine and I'm yours". Oh boy, Oh boy. But that's the whole idea, "we want to tell", not "we told". When we are in the state of broken-heartedness, we often times felt that it's like the end of the world. Well, for other people they would tell you that it's something that will just pass but if you are that brokenhearted person, it's true to you.

But another truth is, it'll really pass. Easier said than done but the thing here is that, it can be done.

So for all broken-hearted people out there...call me, let's drink to that.XD

One of the most memorable scenes for me from the movie was when Tom and Summer was sitting on the bench. Tom was telling Summer that he'll never figure out why Summer never wanted a boy-friend but now she is somebody else' wife.

Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

That's like: Ouch. The truth certainly hurts. That line stayed with me, What I was never sure with you. The line may not sound subtle but I think that's way a lot better than the usual bull people uses like: I'm not ready; We're better off as friends; You're like a brother to me; You're too perfect for me; and I don't deserve you---kind of crap.

Yes true. We do take into serious consideration the other person whose heart was broken. Of course that's the most sensible thing to do. But have we ever asked the heart-breaker's side of the story? More often we don't. Oh pardon me. Yes, we do. We ask them questions like: Why do you enjoy breaking somebody else's heart? Why him and not me? What's wrong with me? What does he have that I don't have? How could you do this to me you ruthless, evil witch! Makarma ka sana!

lol.

I know they sound exaggerated but you get the point. It's hard to peek on to the heart-breaker's-heart when you're the heart-broken-one. It's hard to be rational on something that requires no logic in the first place.

Think of the anxiety, the predicament, the uneasiness on the part of the heart-breaker. You got to realize that though it's not your fault that you are in love with that person, it's not also that other person's fault that he/she is not in love with you or had fallen out of love with you. The There's no easy way to break somebody's heart song comes to mind right away.

It's all part of the unwritten rules of love. You are free to love a person but that person is also free to love you back or not. You have to agree to all its terms whether you like it or not. Yes again it's true that the news such as getting caught up in an unrequited love is not good and we don't want to hear it, but hear it we must.

I have only one message for all heart-breakers: may your heart be broken too so you may know how it hurts!

Oooppssss.... I don't mean that. XD

haha.

But just like what I had said. We must show appreciation for those people who had broken our hearts for they had most likely helped us find ourselves in the process.

So the real message must be: ♬ You made me stronger by breaking my heart. ♫ ♩

The first time I read the title of this movie: 500 Days of Summer, I thought of Math right away. I mean I tried converting days in to years and months and days again. So if there are 365 days in an ordinary year, it's equivalent to 1 year, 4 months and 15 days.Hmmmmm... I think I'm complicating it. Anyway, I was thinking that summer don't happen the entire year. It's a season that usually starts from June till September in America and from April to June here in the Philippines. But either way, it's totally impossible to have 500 days of summer in a year. So I was wondering if this is one of those movies about summer flings.

But nah, of course I was wrong.

The story is just simple. This is a story of a boy meets girl. Boy falls in love. Girl doesn't. And the girl's name is Summer. So this is the story of a boy named Tom and his 500 days with/with-out Summer. And though at the start of the film the narrator said that we should know upfront that this is not a love story, I don't think that's true.

Love though unrequited is still a love story for me.

For usual cases, it's always the girl who's portrayed as the hopeless romantic. The one who grew up believing in fairytales and the existence of prince charming. But in this case we get to see it in a guy's perspective. Probably because the writer and the director of the film are both from the male species alike. The story revolves over Tom's internal experience and naturally more on his experience of Love.

It had been proven time and again that everything in this world seems paradoxical but true at the same time. Oxymonoronic. A thing will always have its opposite. Of course there's the obvious: man & woman; night & day; matter & anti-matter; yin & yang; the heartbreaker and the heartbroken.

As for the latter part, once or maybe a couple of times in our lives we get to play that role: either you're the one who got dumped or you're the one who does the dumping. And yes you may think that we don't need another reminder of those experiences especially if your role was the former one but what the heck. Whether that heartbrokeness made you a misogynist or a misandrist or not, we all do look back. And this movie will make us look back because we should indeed must look (again).

It's the combination of how the story was presented, the charm of Joseph Gordon-Levitt, great OST, the great quotable movie lines, the truthfulness and the real-life scenarios that had made me fall in love in this movie. (I watched it twice now). So don't be surprise that maybe in the next couple of days I will post my take on some subjects raised in the film.

For now, first lesson I learned from 500 Days: we must show appreciation for those people who had broken our hearts for they had most likely helped us find ourselves in the process.

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So to John. Thank you.

Rating: ★★★★★

Sino ang iboboto mo sa darating na halalan? Yung naka dilaw, naka asul, naka-pink, naka-dalandan o yung nakabulaklaking polo? Teka patay na pala yung huli, sumalangit nawa ang kanyang kaluluwa. At ano nga pala ang tagalog ng pink?

At teka ulit, ba't ba ako nagtatagalog? At kelan pa ako naging interesado sa pulitika?

Ito siguro ang napapala ng masyadong pagtangkilik sa mga kwento ni Bob Ong. Kund di mo kilala si Bob Ong siguradong di ka Pilipino. At kung Pilipino ka naman at di mo sya kilala, hindi ka Cool. Kung wala kang paki-alam libre mo na lang ako ng Monster Float at Cool ka na para sakin.XD

Oo nga naman. Bakit ba ako ingles ng ingles? Mas madaling magsulat at magbasa ng sariling lengwahe di ba? Maniniwala ka ba na-isulat ko ang lahat ng nasa itaas kasama ito sa loob lang ng dalawang minuto at labing-limang segundo. Cool. Ngayon alam mo na kung gaano ako kabagal magtipa.

Pero sa totoo lang minsan ko lang talaga kung gamitin ang Tagalog. At sa totoo lang isa ito sa pinakaayaw kong subject noong nag-aaral pa ako. Nagsimula yung pagkamuhi ko sa araling ito noong high-school ako ng nagbigay ng pagsubok yung guro ko tungkol sa kung ano yung nangyari kagabi sa teleseryeng Pangako Sa' Yo. Totoo! Walang halong biro! At sa mga kapanahunang yun, mas pinapanood ko pa yung Samurai X.

At ano bang paki ko kung ang pangalan ni Ton-Ton sa seryeng yun eh Eduardo? At mas lalong anong mapapala ko kung mag-ina pala si Amor Powers at yung bidang babae? At kelan pa naging compulsory ang panonood ng telenobela?

Aralin kasi namin noon ang tungkol sa kulturang pinoy, lalong lalo na ang paggawa ng pelikula, patalastas at kung ano ano pa patungkol sa pinilakang tabing. Pero di ko alam kong bakit sa dinarami-rami ng teleserye eh yung Pangako Sa 'Yo pa yung napili ni Ma'am. Kapamilya siguro. O sadyang adik lang. Kakaiba talagang magpower-trip ang mga guro minsan.

At isa pa di naman ako taga Luzon kaya ang nakagisnan kong wika ay iba. Pwede na rin siguro akong matawag na linguist. Sabi kasi nila, kelangan mo raw ng minimum na limang wika bago ka maturingang linguist.

Heto ang mga alam ko:

1. Tagalog/ Filipino - Pambansang Wika ng mahal kong Pilipinas. Ginagamit ng nakararami sa Luzon, sa mga programa sa telebisyon, ng mga taong ngayon lang nagkakilala at magka-iba ang probinsyang pinanggalingan kaya mag-kaiba ng dayalekto. Ginagamit rin ng mga taong trip mag-astang turista sa sariling probinsya.

2. English/Ingles - ikalawang wika ng mga Pilipino at pangunahing wika ng mga aso. Ewan ko ba pero kadalasan yung mga dog-trainer, ingles ang ginagamit sa pagbibigay ng utos sa mga alagang aso. Sit! Stand! Roll! Play dead! 1+1? At bakit kaya ingles ang naging ikalawang wika natin gayung mas matagal tayong nasakop ng mga kastila? Siguro ngayon wala akong trabaho kasi walang callcenter sa pinas.

3. Hiligaynon/Ilonggo - wika ng mga taong nakatira sa kanlurang bahagi ng Visayas. Ang unang wika na aking nakagisnan. Yung pa alon-alon yung tono na pag nagsasalita eh parang kumakanta pero pakantahin mo at sintunado naman. Malambing raw pakinggan. Yung tipong nag-aaway na pero akala ng ibang di nakakaintindi eh naglalambingan pa rin. Ay ambot na lang! Kung kabalo lang kamo. =p

4. Bisaya/Cebuano - sa totoo lang patuloy ko pa ring pinag-aaralan ang wikang to. May isang taon at anim na buwan rin pa la akong nagiging trying-hard na Bisaya. Kelangan eh. Dyahe naman kapag magtagalog ako o mag-iingles sa buong araw. Tip: Lagyan mo lang ng "jud", "mao", "di ay" at "pud", magtutunog bisaya ka na.

5. 1010101000100101/Binary/Computer Language - wala lang. Trip ko lang idagdag para maging lima. XD

Kung pano napunta sa Wika ang artikulong patungkol sana sa pulitika ay di ko alam. Ang wika kasi ang daming klase kaya mas mahaba-haba ang magiging usapin kesa pulitika. May dalawang klase lang naman ng kasi ng pulitiko: yung evil at yung lesser evil. At isa pa baka isipin ng iba kaya lang ako nagsusulat patungkol sa pulitika kasi...kasi...basta!=p

Pero siguro yung iboboto ko yung pulitikong magsusuot ng mga paborito kong kulay: pula at berde. Parang Christmas tree kasi kaya tiyak merong regalo parati.

Sa pangkalahatan, apatnaput-walong beses akong gumamit ng salitang ingles sa artikulong ito. Kung adik ka pwede mong bilangin. Hirap nga gumawa ng artikulong mas marami ang tagalog. Di pwede ang spell-check. Pero kung ano ang kahalagahan nyan, di ko alam katulad din ng di ko pa rin maarok na dahilan kung bakit ako kumuha ng Pangako Sa 'Yo na pagsusulit. Sabi nga resbakan lang yan. Pero para doon sa mga taong di naman talaga nagbabasa ng buong artikulo kapag nakitan napakahaba nito at kadalasan eh binabasa lang ang una at huling pangungusap..

Panahon na ng pagbabago. Palaging sigaw ng mga pulitiko tuwing halalan. Marami na nga ang nagbago, di na Pangako Sa 'Yo ang uso ngayon, Dahil May Isang Ikaw na ang patok ngayon pero yung magkatambal na bida ay pareho pa rin. May nadiskubre na ring bagong international language: yung internet lingo. Ang ganda nga eh, mabilisan lang kung isulat. OMG! WTF? WTH?! gtg. S***. LOL. LMAO. ROFL. RAWR.

Oo marami na rin ang pagbabago dala ng panahon pero marami pa ring Traffic lights na di naman gumagana, kalsadang parating under contruction, at pulitikong artista.

Isang tanong na lang ngayon ang bumabagabag sa mga Pilipinong may malasakit sa bayan. Isang tanong na maaaring magsimula nga ng pagbabagong tunay. Sino ang iboboto mo sa darating na halalan?

Pakatandaan na ikaw at ako ang simula ng pagbabago.

It's been a while.

Yes. I know. I know.

Been physically not OK for the last days. No I was not that sick cause technically I've still be working for the last six nights. To make it short, I was not well and yes you might have thought I should had call in sick and had some rest. But I don't know, I just had a feeling I'd be more sick if I did not work.

Today's a Sunday. Obviously. Staying here in Cebu gives me no reason not to attend the Eucharistic celebration. Every 100 meters you'd see a church, a chaplain, a school chapel, and even malls have scheduled masses. But the weather today was not that good. Very much tempting me to simply go home, stay in bed and sleep the whole day.

So I found myself running on my way to Church. Fighting over nature and trying to beat time. I only got 3 minutes before Church time and it's still more or less a 6-minute-walk away. And of course the sanest thing to do was to run. I could actually feel some eyes looking at me, some heads turning while I passed by them. I never thought I could be a head-turner.=p

But yep, I made it on time.

Church.

I had spent 9 years of my student life in a school administered by Lasallian Brothers. And though I would say I'm not an epitome of a perfect Catholic it's hypocritical to say that my faith was not at all affected nor molded by my Alma Mater. But nah, I'm not here to talk about my faith. Let's just say that there's some instances that when I go to church, I wish I get to go with a family member or a friend or a somebody in particular. Sometimes, the peace be with you part just makes me sad. But of course I'd try to disregard that thought. After all, Church is not suppose to make us feel alone.

Bunwich.

Haha. Anong relasyon sa pagsimba? It's my one and only day off for the week so I decided that I'd better stay home. After all, I did some panic buying for some books last week right?^_^ So I better finish them off. So on my way home, I was thinking of what to have for lunch then I passed by a Dunkin Donuts stall and somebody was buying bunwich. Bunwich for lunch? Why not? Funny how a sandwich in a bun would actually reminds me of someone. Sometimes, eating makes me sad too. It's just another day eating alone. But nah again. Shake it shake it off.

I remember blogging before from my old blog site something like this. Life right now is as boring as my bowl of oat-meal. No matter what flavor it is, it’s still an oatmeal. Boring…but good for the heart. That’s the only difference. Oatmeal is good for the heart but my heart here was never been good.

Sometimes, it feels like I am stranded.

Gawd. I sound so miserable.

haha.

I hope it's not too late to erase that impression. I am not. I've long accepted that it's part of independence and living away from home. But sometimes one just can't help but think about it.

But I'm better. Better is better than good.

If you know what I mean. ^_^

And yes, I'm back.

The first ever book I've bought from my own allowance was the first book of the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants by Anne Brashares. It was a second-hand book. I was still a student back then so budget was tight and book sales/second-hand bookstores were great help. Before that, I usually would simply borrow books from my classmates or make use of my school library card.

My first book collections are all used books. Then I started saving and started purchasing new books. But I was not a fan of asking my mom for extra-allowance for non-school related stuffs so money was a problem back then and so I ended up using my library card again.

It was when I finally started earning a living that I gave in to my perks. Almost every pay day, I'd buy one or two. But reading books is one thing and collecting them is a totally a different thing. Remember the saying: Don't judge the book by it's cover? Well, if you start collecting books, cover does matter. Sometimes, it could drive you crazy thinking as to when will this particular book cover version will be available.

Size, publisher, version will matter. If you started collecting Hard bound you want all to be hard bound. If you had it soft bound, you want all to be soft bound. And then there are cases where in a certain book became a mega-hit that the author decided to make it in to a series, you ended up cursing the author cause that'll mean more expenses cause you have to collect them all. But you ended up waiting for the sequel and buying them anyway.

And then there's the original book cover and you love the book so much that when it was made in to a major motion picture you ended up buying the movie-tie-in edition of the book. Some people might ask what's the point of buying the same book that you already have when the content is still the same and the only difference is the cover? Yeah, what's the point of doing that when all we were after was the knowledge after all?

Personally, I can't think of a direct answer. But we could most likely credit giving in to all these whims for satisfaction and compulsiveness sake. Especially when a certain book looks so battered already which only means one thing, it was borrowed a lot of times and got dog ears in between pages.

Dog ears!

That's the number one enemy of book afficionados. That's why we have this so called bookmark invented because it's understandable that we need breaks in between reading and we need something to mark where we are in a book. But never, NEVER fold a book's page. Dog ears are a no no!

Anyway, I was planning to buy a new pair of shoes or pants maybe but then as usual I ended up buying books instead. I realized I better dress-up my brain first (if there's such a thing as that.) I better make my brain look good first before what's seen outside. haha. And guess what? I ended up buying 10 Books in a matter of 3 days! Yah, I think I need to be rehabbed. Don't ask me how much it all cost me. Siguro nga galit lang ako sa pera. lol

Well, at least all these overtime that I'm doing at work is not being put to waste. At least, I'm not buying drugs. haha. And at least again, I have something to keep me company for the upcoming days. Pero daig ko pa yung may exam sa dami ng babasahin.

But yay! I love them!^_^

kelan ang exam?XD

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Haha. Yah I know that's a lame way of scaring the hell out of you. Sorry but it's Halloween time and I just got to join the bandwagon of frightening people. The picture above by the way is one of the Halloween decorations in the office. That's Ms. Emily Rose just in case you want to know who's that girl above me.

Unlike other people back in the province, me and my family don't go to cemetery during times like this. Let's just say we are just lucky enough that those who are close to us has not yet gone ahead of us. Masamang damo kasi ang pamilya ko kaya heto, hanggang ngayon magkakasama pa ring naghahasik ng lagim. lol. But truly, we are just blessed that till now we are still here.

If I'm back home for sure by now I am eating all those sticky food my mom had surely prepared. I don't know but why is it that during times like this we prepare these kind of food? Maybe it's just a Filipino tradition we all got used to follow. And we should offer these food to all the souls and we must not forget to light a candle. Failure to do so, will make a soul wander and you don't want some spirit going back and forth in your home right? That'll be too spooky. =p

Well, it's not bad to follow all these traditions. But let's not dwell more in all these monsters, demons, and all those unwanted spirit. Halloween is not all about burning witches at the stake and celebrating with treats thereafter. As a Christian, I do believe there are souls that are still trapped in the purgatory and this is the time that we living must pray for the dead especially for those souls who has not yet entered heaven.

Ooooppsss...better stop now before I start sounding preachy. ^_^

But yeah, Happy Halloween.